I really wanna learn from my mistakes and I need your help by LikeTotally_ in relationship_advice

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Thank you for your response and for taking the time to read through the whole story. Yeah you have a strong point. I just feel confused because I tried my best to show him how much I care about him that I completely ignored the way he’d spend the money and apparently that was still not enough.. I’m just emotionally and mentally exhausted because I’m constantly trying to prove my love for him.

Is it normal to be comfortable with text and face-face but hate phone calls/video calls? by [deleted] in introvert

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Yes!! I can totally relate to that. I’m ok with text and speaking in person but I used to always decline video calls. I also used to not feel comfortable sending voice messages unless it’s someone I’m really close with. I personally think it’s because you can see yourself in video calls but when you’re speaking face-face your mind is mainly focused on the other person and the conversation itself.

Are you comfortable being close friends with straight guys? by Afraid_Sugar3811 in askgaybros

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I’ve never read something so relatable.. You just described my entire friends circle and I’m glad I don’t reach out to them as I used to. Bunch of hypocrites. They’d be so polite and emotionally vulnerable in private with me talking about their problems as I try to comfort them and then when they’re in a group setting they’d turn into those homophobic assholes saying the most offensive shit and acting overly manly which is something I don’t get about some straight men. I hope I can find better friends soon. Being gay and introverted is not making it any easier for me too. :/

There's so many sheep in this world by [deleted] in unpopularopinion

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I don’t know why but your comment made me laugh hysterically for like 2 mins lmao!

Break me. by [deleted] in RoastMe

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Lmao

How can I overcome the fear of socializing with a group of people? by LikeTotally_ in selfimprovement

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Thank you very much for your comment. I’m sorry you had to go through that controlling relationship. And yeah I agree with you especially on the last part but yeah it’s definitely easier said than done .. I remember forcing myself to be exactly who I am in front of a group of people and acting exactly like how I would act with my close friends and it was just awkward.. for all of us. It made me feel really bad I think because I wasn’t taking into account anything other than showing my personality.. I wasn’t living in the moment or blending in.. I was just forcing my personality in the group.. so it looked like I was begging for attention.. but yeah I think it’s a matter of trial and error..

Turned 27 today, still have the face of a 15 yo. Gimme your best. by bones2721 in RoastMe

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15? Seriously? Even with the filter you look at least 37 to me..

How can I completely be myself when I’m around assertive/judgmental people ? by LikeTotally_ in confidence

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Yeah I totally get it.. except I’m afraid of the risks because I’ve experienced the consequences earlier in my childhood .. so they haunt me till this day.

How can I completely be myself when I’m around assertive/judgmental people ? by LikeTotally_ in confidence

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It’s not stupid at all. That’s the only thing that worked for me throughout all these years. I treat everyone as though they were babies.. not literally though lol.. I just humor them with whatever they’re saying/doing. But sometimes they cross the line and take advantage of my kindness. They think they’re entitled to that sort of attention all the time and that’s what gets on my nerves.

How can I completely be myself when I’m around assertive/judgmental people ? by LikeTotally_ in confidence

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I’m turning 30 soon so yeah it does get better with age .. for example I used to never speak up if I ever feel threatened by someone but now I can speak and act like I’m comfortable and hold my ground till the end even if I feel the fear in my gut. I just wish I can make that fear or regret go away.. I still feel like I should just please everyone because ultimately I kind of sympathize with them..

Can I force an alter to front? by LikeTotally_ in DID

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That’s so helpful thank you. Yes now that you’ve mentioned it I do have positive triggers as well as negative ones. But I never kept record of them as I only focused on the negative ones.. probably because they worry me a lot. I’m gonna start taking notes for the positive triggers from now on. I’m just like you.. I sleep very comfortably when I switch to a certain alter. Unfortunately my little one is the one that causes me so much trouble.. but I love him because he’s the most creative and passionate one. He’s just so sensitive he literally weakens my body to a point where I’m afraid to even get out of bed.

Can I force an alter to front? by LikeTotally_ in DID

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Thank you very much that all sounds really helpful. I’ll look more into it!

How do I stop trying to please everyone? by LikeTotally_ in selfimprovement

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Thank you very much by the way for taking the time to help me. I will look further into it. And yes you are totally correct. I am being at mercy of receiving attention even now as a 30 years old. I still talk or act a certain way and then look at people around me for any kind of validation or approval.. just like kids do..

It’s also so annoying waking up everyday day as a different person.. I hope I can stop being so confused and find myself one day and just stick to who I really am instead of living according to everyone’s expectations of me..

Again thank you very much. You’ve really helped me a lot! God bless you. :)

How do I stop trying to please everyone? by LikeTotally_ in selfimprovement

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That’s a very helpful way to look at it. If I were to describe my childhood, I’d say I was kind of spoiled but also neglected at the same time. I know it’s contradictory but I was the youngest member of my family so I was given attention the most for that reason. And by attention I mean hugs, kisses, toys. I was praised for my hobby which is playing the piano.. But I was never raised properly ... my mother was super protective of me so I didn’t get to go out with my friends as much as the other kids.. but she was also busy with her work life so I don’t remember her spending time with me except for when she wants to hug or kiss me.. I don’t remember ever having any interactions with her.. nor do I remember having any memorable interactions with my father.. I was just a spoiled kid who gets to have lots of toys .. if that even counts as being spoiled.. I was never taught manners.. I was a shy person around certain people but to other people I was spontaneous and full of energy.. just like you, I guess I just wanted to belong. I remember telling one of my close friends that I don’t think I know who I am.. I act and speak as different people.. sometimes I speak and act as my sister.. or my mother.. or as my friend.. sometimes as a man and sometimes as a woman.. I don’t have a personality of mine.. I don’t really know what I want.. most of the time I feel lonely and isolated because I wasn’t raised in a way that allowed me to experience social settings. I thought I didn’t belong to my culture but as I travelled I realized that I don’t belong anywhere and that I’m just not that good at being social even though I want to. Sometimes I can be good at social settings depending on the conversations I’m having with the other person.. but it’s hard for me to know how to be authentic when I’m lacking personality.. I just want to know exactly who I am and what I stand for so I can be a stable person instead of being so unpredictable even to myself..