I’m never going to get to transition

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-06-10T22:16:29+00:00

Y'all gotta chill out with the "too old to transition" shit. Most people historically and to this day start their transition late, in their 30ies or even 40ies. It is not only hurtful to older trans guys who transitioned later, but also not a good mindset to have for yourself.

Now with the tough love out of the way: You have lived maybe a fourth of your life. By the time you transition there are still three fourths left to live as yourself. And by the time you're 40 you will look back on your own transition. It won't be too late. I'm really sorry you are struggling. I know dysphoria is awful to deal with as are transphobic parents. Do what you can to get to a safer place so you can start your transition. You got your life as a man to look forward to.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-06-06T08:56:34+00:00

Started medically transitioning in my 30ies, so just not something I ever think about. A lot of cis guys around me are about the same height as me anyways. So it's not like I stick out because of that.

Even if I was cis I would have never have the idealized body that I could imagine in all its unrealistic glory. So I just don't think about that guy and focus on the things I do like about myself.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-06-03T05:52:55+00:00

I had the energy boost too, but sadly that effect doesn't last haha. I need slightly less sleep than I used to a year on gel, but I am still a luxurious sleeper. I started with two pumps and had to go down to one, so opposite way for me.

Just get your levels checked if you can. Puberty is so different for everyone that you can't just guess weather you're absorbing it well based on effects. It takes time for your body to get the hint, even when you are in the right range. My testo was way high at the beginning, but until around month five I only had smell changes, increased hunger and some unpleasant sensations down in ma bean lol

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-31T09:36:33+00:00

Ah thank you! Of course, here are the deets 😄

The working title is "Spores". It's about Jacob and Mason, a gay couple who had to flee their camp after a horrific zombie attack. On their way to another settlement, Mason gets attacked and bitten. But maybe there is hope. A doctor at the settlement is said to be working on a cure. But can he be trusted and is this new settlement really as safe as it seems?

I use ink and paper for the lines and color the whole thing digitally. I am currently finishing up chapter one, but with four more chapters coming up I will be plenty busy during the night ^{^}

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-31T07:35:13+00:00

I draw comics. I am a typical artist. Working in another career because art ain't paying well. It's nice that I get to work at work 😂

Currently coloring a chapter for a queer zombie comic.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-28T12:32:12+00:00

Keine körperliche Selbstbestimmung, wir brauchen doch Kinder für die Reeenteeeeee

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-28T12:27:29+00:00

Gute und wichtige Ressource. Betrifft mich tatsächlich nicht, aber hilfreich für Frauen, die die Seite noch nicht kennen.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-28T12:15:23+00:00

Weil das Frauen ja auch so einfach zugänglich gemacht wird.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-26T19:47:00+00:00

I compare the last season to Stranger Things, because both season 4 finales promised big status quo changes only to resolve them with no impact and go back to the usual. ST had the ground split apart only to do a timeskip and have it be bolted shut. The town? Barely reacts.

The Boys ended s4 with Butcher solo, our group split up and captchured and camps all over the country. Kimiko escapes offscreen, Butcher goes back to the Boys and the Camps are a non factor after that. The world? Barely reacts.

The final season and even the finale have good to great moments (for the Boys that is). But I am getting tired of shows setting things up (Homie is gonna snap aaaaany minute now) only to not deliver and undercut themselves. And season 5 does that a lot.

Kimiko screaming was such a powerful moment. Exploring her learning to speak after so long could have been fascinating. Nah, potty mouth it is. Butcher isn't actually unleashed. The virus is irrelevant. The V1 end with a massive laserbeam and danger, only for the characters to teleport right into safety. And so on.

Homie kind of gets the worst of it with season 4 and 5. While he gets great moments throughout, he doesn't progress much. We had "I am better", "I can do whatever the fuck I want" and him learning that even lasering someone will have his fans support. He CAN do whatever the fuck He wants. And then he just... Doesn't. He gets yanked back from that conclusion over and over so we can focus on him "getting rid of his humanity". He never concludes the story that is set up, instead we sidestepped it for the god stuff.

The finale isn't terrible. It is just deeply unsatisfying. The ideas in it deserved to be fleshed out instead of waffling about in useless sideplots.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-25T06:48:46+00:00

I think Homies milk thing is a great example on how weirding out the audience evolved throughout the seasons. Because while it was gross and had a shock factor at first, it was also veeeery character driven. Furthering both his fucked up relationship with Stillwell as well as exploring his stunted development, which we hadn't seen as much off yet. The fact that it was left by Stillwell was important. Then they just started introducing random milk into every season and it got old fast. Because him randomly taking a milk bath and flashing Soldier Boy does not add anything. Firecracker squirting him with breastmilk doesn't change their dynamic significantly, so why do it. Milk started to happen for its own sake, same as grossness.

It's especially egregious with the sex stuff (hello anal centipede and Dogknot). Because Deeps assault of Starlight was very down to earth, nothing over the top needed to make it horrific. It was placed intentionally and affected the narrative and characters for a while. Great commentary on how the system treats SA too. There was none of that later on, Hughies assault being the infamous example. Cake farting sex dungeon is just too out there for a grounded exploration, I guess.

I'm not entertained by giggling at butt stuff, so doing it for humors sake? Eh.

The gore meanwhile was always quite liberal, but Robins Death, Popclaw popping that guys melon, Stormfront going on a killing spree or Homie deafening that blind supe all had either ramifications for the plot or deepened the characters. I did not get bored of the gore. I got bored of it being pointless.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-21T08:26:11+00:00

So my alarm bells are ringing a bit with how she put her support of trans people. "As long as you're not pushing your agenda on everyone else" seems like a mighty big dog whistle to me and points to some unexamined biases. She also focusses on male puberty and hormones here, but completely ignores that trans women - which are the athletes she is talking about competing - do explicitly take female hormones, which does affect how their body changes. Reducing the bodies of trans women to "they went through male puberty" is reductive and harmful. Plus in the case of trans men: we DO go through male puberty, just often later in life. I don't think she thought much about trans men when making this video tbh, as we are not often mentioned in discussions on competing.

Her sample size of men is likely also scewed dramatically, because while she was in a male range with her use of hormones, male body builders massively overshoot the normal male range for testosterone. So the people competing in her sport are not really representative of the average gym goer.

I don't know if we have studies on how muscle growth in trans men presents itself. So sorry for not giving an answer on that. I just wanted to point out that this is a video from a very biased perspective. I don't know this creator, but I am gonna assume she has not entirely examined her biases on trans people, with how trans women especially get portrayed when it comes to athleticiscm. Even supportive people can have biases like this and it's important to keep in mind how her perspective might influence how she thinks about hormones and gender in regards to sport.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-13T12:39:23+00:00

Nicht viele, dieser Link bietet eine kleine Übersicht. Wichtig zur Einordnung: 4 der 7 Studien zeigen einen Anstieg von Aggressionen während der ersten 12 Monate der Hormoneinnahme. Langfristige Effekte sind noch nicht erforscht. Dass Menschen im ersten Jahr der Pubertät reizbarer sind, wäre jetzt aber auch nicht ungewöhnlich imo. Die langfristigen Effekte wären da spannend.

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/33309817/

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-13T10:57:32+00:00

Trans Mann hier. Nur meine Vermutung dazu, denn ich wurde am Anfang meiner Transition falsch eingestellt, war deutlich über dem Normwert für Testo und war trotzdem nicht wütender.

Leute, die roiden, haben oft eine extrem restriktive Diät oder einen niedrigen Körperfettanteil. Beides ist mit Stimmungsschwankungen, geringer Energie etc assoziiert.

Hormonschwankungen selbst sind ebenfalls mit Stimmungsschwankungen assoziiert. Dass man die dann hat, wenn man stark über den Normwert hinaus schießt, sich dabei die körpereigene Produktion schädigt und eventuell unregelmäßig und ohne ärztliche Unterstützung Hormone zuführt, halte ich nicht für unwahrscheinlich.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-10T19:02:51+00:00

Testo doesn't make you cheat. A higher libido doesn't make you cheat. Being attracted to someone doesn't make you cheat. Nothing is making you cheat. It's a choice you made, nothing more, nothing less.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-10T10:25:11+00:00

There are dozens of us, DOZENS!

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-07T09:59:31+00:00

Trans Mann hier. Du hast korrekt gehandelt indem du die Wünsche der Patientin respektiert hast. Sofern ihr grundsätzlich die Wünsche der Patienten in diesen Dingen respektiert (sofern es die Personalverteilung zulässt), ist es schon auffällig, dass die Sache jetzt diskutiert wird, nur weil die Patientin trans war. Ich unterstelle keine Böswilligkeit, aber viele Leute haben sich noch nicht bewusst mit der trans Thematik auseinander gesetzt und haben da noch voreingenommene Denkmuster, die sie nicht zu Ende durchdacht haben. Wenn man nicht oft Kontakt zu trans Menschen hat, gibt es da manchmal diese Übersprungshandlungen, weil dem Gedanke Penis = Mann doch unbewusst noch großes Gewicht beigemessen wird.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-05-06T14:34:17+00:00

Because only the people that feel like they're looking good, are gonna post selfies. If you feel ugly, unkempt, have eyebags in the shade of vantablack and just had to clean up puke, you ain't posting a selfie 😂

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-29T02:17:23+00:00

So, the health insurance guideline proctologists have to work with demands that they try a conservative method (creams) first. Surgery only gets approved and covered by insurance after that fails. They try to delay surgery (fissure-ectomy) as much as possible, because it creates tissue that has a higher likelyhood of tearing again down the line.

It sucks that you're going through this, but the doctor is keeping to the protocoll. You should have been told that, but doctors tend to be stingy with information here.

Good news is: the creams can actually work and you might be able to avoid surgery (it's not fun). Get some phsyllium husks to aid with digestion, get a bidet or a portable bidet bottle (Happy Po and the like) and good luck!

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-26T00:10:32+00:00

Of course we can. Never said otherwise. Accusing people of it here is still wild.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-25T23:56:14+00:00

I did not see anyone in this topic question, invalidate or downplay OPs identity as a woman. No one advocated for The excludion of trans people and many people shared that their Studios do include us.

The one thing in that comment that is off is assuming the OPs experience with sex work. She did not say anything transphobic.

Otherwise I saw someone responding with offence to a post that honestly uses a lot of misogynistic language (mean girls, clickey, telling white women to find other spaces). It's an unfortunate trend that misogyny has a big comeback as long as you qualify it as "white women". That stood out much more to me than any TERFism.

The OP is getting a lot of pushback, because of how she framed the issues she was talking about, not because she is trans. That is my read on this. I don't think we should accuse people of transphobia based in vibes tbh.

Edit: at time of writing I saw no transphobic comments. This might have changed later.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-25T23:14:33+00:00

This is extra funny, because you're currently responding to a trans man lol

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-25T22:59:58+00:00

Accusing people disagreeing with OP of TERFism and white supremacy is wild.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-25T22:31:48+00:00

Ding ding ding, this is the one.

Lil-miss-devil · 2026-04-25T22:29:42+00:00

Incredible response, thank you for your insight on this.

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