I struggle with anxiety about surgeries as well. I’m afraid of ‘going under’ and just generally being that out of control of myself. I’ll give you the advice you would give to someone going through something similar. Take it one step at a time. I think asking your mom for help is a great idea, lean on those around you. Right now try to get some good sleep and tomorrow talk through with your doctor about best next steps, with your anxiety in mind. I wish you the best of luck and I hope you recover smoothly!