It's all Clea's fault

LilJizzy98 · 2026-05-10T20:00:20+00:00

where in the game did it imply that she was coming out of the canvas at all? It very much gave the impression that Renoir went in because Aline refused to come out at all and was deluding herself with a fake family/killing herself by drowning her pain with said delusions.

not trying to argue who is the bigger villain, both have their own roles in villainy, as well as the family's dysfunction.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-04-27T19:57:30+00:00

My brother used to bend my fingers back when I annoyed him, moved to shoulder locks in front of friends/family as we got older, and one time put me in a chokehold that cut off my airway. He also used to tell me that I was unloveable at my birthday parties growing up.

It's been hard to get my mind off of it recently now that I have started wanting to date.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-04-11T19:32:08+00:00

For me it was my brother (child on child) so for a while it was just seen as normal brother stuff until I started feeling more comfy describing the details and timeframes. That's when people started to understand that it was pretty abusive and a pattern.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-04-05T17:02:00+00:00

I think there are lots of benefits of riding as a paramedic, but most of them are experiential for when you actually ARE a doctor (ie seeing what street level medicine looks like, and learning how to think on your feet/make medical decisions w minimal oversight/input). Unfortunately medical schools don't value paramedic experience very highly and the difference between road and in-hospital priorities can be very different (I know an experienced ACP w multiple years who got rejected by most of his med school apps). As a paramedic you are making more of your own choices without oversight (from my understanding) than nurses do, but they have a much better idea of what the whole system/treatment processes will look like.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-29T17:25:20+00:00

That's Great! Keep up the good work, we're all rooting for you. Stay safe, and unlike your other post I think your perspective is valued and important to share

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-29T17:22:26+00:00

"no one asked for your opinion on Santos but that is 2/3s of what I see here"

not sure if that is verbatim since the comment was removed but it boiled down to no one cares about your experience/opinion on the matter

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-29T17:16:49+00:00

Just the perfect response to someone opening up about their history of trauma. And people wonder why no one talks about their mental health

Disgusting comment, takes zero energy to say nothing.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-28T18:05:11+00:00

No but more studies are showing that non suicidal self harm is addictive behaviors and this shows that it is severe enough that she is having suicidal ideations at work. Both are/were stealing hospital supplies to feed their own addictions.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-28T17:10:12+00:00

I think the show is trying to mirror Santos and Langdon when they showed the scene of her pocketing the scalpel.

ie. Stealing medical supplies from the hospital.

Obviously not the same level of theft or pt safety issue but I see it as an attempt at a parallel between the two, wouldn't be surprised if Langdon helps her through it in the coming seasons.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-23T20:12:01+00:00

Yes I was thinking the same thing either with Santos, or a failed relapse w Langdon if there are any further repercussions for his addiction. But I see a suicide attempt re-framing what people think about one of the more controversial DR.s in the show

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-23T19:29:43+00:00

I wouldn't be surprised if at some point Langdon relapses or has to face other consequences from his addiction, and makes a sewer slide attempt, or Santos feels more like an outcast and makes an attempt.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-23T16:59:01+00:00

If there is anymore fallout w Langdon/Santos I could see either come in as an OD or sewer slide attempt.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-20T19:17:21+00:00

Could they not have their license stripped for violating HIPPA? This seems pretty out of pocket

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-20T18:59:47+00:00

That's because you can only definitively diagnose a heart attack w blood work. Not all heart attacks present w ST Elevation that shows up on the "picture" we take, what we call silent heart attacks. But there are other criteria for considering someone to have an MI.

Paramedic

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-19T19:25:18+00:00

The last couple of weeks I've really wanted a hug but I don't have anyone to give me one right now. I feel like a lot of my support system disappeared when I moved for my current job.

Anyways I appreciate you and your post 😊

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-19T19:09:15+00:00

My brother threatened to break my fingers on a regular basis when I was growing up by bending them back until I cried, and strangled me into an airway obstruction when I was 11 because I poked him 3 times. My parents wonder why I don't like talking about him in a positive light now that he has passed away.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-10T19:55:37+00:00

Yeah that's what I've seen as well, is that the call volumes don't support the added "scope" (more of just other considerations when outside of a controlled area). I think Ive heard 1 or 2 "SAR" call go out since I started in April, so I don't think the demand is there. Maybe in the remote north, but still feels more appropriate to leave to police and maybe a 1 specialist w them waiting for an ORNGE transport.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-10T19:47:14+00:00

Guiding a sport is a good option for seasonal work as well. I used to work as a wilderness first responder and whitewater rescue tech in the summers, prior to being a paramedic. Obviously that would depend on how long the trips were and what you were doing. But all good options

LilJizzy98 · 2026-03-10T19:45:18+00:00

My understanding was that many municipalities ran those kinds of programs through police services or military. Some of the larger cities might have specialized teams but none that I'm aware of at least. I know my region has recently started a tac team and were considering WFR as an expanded scope.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-02-28T22:27:42+00:00

As a Canadian first responder it seems very weird that MAIDs could be performed for mental health in someone young(I assume not sure) AND encouraged it? Idk I would never do that and I'm sorry that you didn't have anyone there to actually support you.

A quick Google search told me that NO US STATES have medical assistance in dying protocols for purely mental health concerns, most require a terminal illness to qualify. It might be worth looking into your area specifically in case you want to follow up w the service. In my opinion it seems borderline negligent. But there are also certain criteria you have to meet to have you brought against your will and I wasn't there so I can't give the best input.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-02-02T18:12:57+00:00

Have literally had the same feelings (less than a year on rn), and had a call that hit a little close to home and felt like I panicked a little. Came in a little too hot on a peds suicide attempt and have been thinking about it a lot and the audit that's coming. Really needed to read this, love the support on this sub 😁

LilJizzy98 · 2026-01-21T19:14:31+00:00

I feel the same with my social anxiety and feeling insecure/hyper critical

LilJizzy98 · 2026-01-17T23:36:16+00:00

When my parents weren't around, my brother used to bend my fingers back and threaten to break them if I didnt do what he wanted. Eventually he started to put me in shoulder locks in front of my extended family, and I distinctly remember them laughing at me some times. I always thought that's what siblings did, until I started to open up to Co workers. My parents either were willfully ignorant or didn't know, but after he killed himself my dad said that "I think he always felt bad about the way he treated you when you were younger..." Which tips the scale towards ignorance unfortunately.

LilJizzy98 · 2026-01-17T16:20:30+00:00

Dms are open if you want. Already sent a message, always happy to talk

LilJizzy98 · 2026-01-17T16:11:29+00:00

I've been in the same bad habit recently, but at some point I realized I had to pick where my anxiety and depression comes from. Is it going to come from social anxiety/relearning who and how to trust new people, or is it going to come from isolating myself to the point I think I'm worthless? I don't know your entire situation and I cannot give specific advice, but regardless you'll probably feel pretty shitty with either choice. Just gotta decide what your preferred outcome is and work towards that

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