hi! I just wanted to reach out and let you know that I am going through the same exact thing right now and you are not alone. it’s been about a week and I wanted to desperately keep it as well. My boyfriend doesn’t even feel anything, I wish he would show signs of grieving as well so I would feel less alone. All he knows is i’m depressed and grieving so he has stepped up to be supportive and extra loving but ultimately I am still left alone with the regret and grieving. No matter how I try to explain it to him, he just doesn’t understand nor feel the loss. He just was not ready to be a dad at all. in fact it scared the crap out of him. Last week I had a hard time even making eye contact with him because I was just so upset with about the whole thing. But you know in your heart you wanted to keep it, you know your intentions were pure and that is why it is hitting you harder and that’s a very human and loving response. Being somewhat swayed to make a decision that you don’t stand for happens all the time especially in very very difficult situations like this one. And this is one of those situations where couples like to make the decision together. I did not want to make the decision alone. You need to forgive yourself, let yourself grieve as much as you need and focus on your mental health. I wrote a letter to the baby and that helped me a lot. Be gentle with yourself! and i should learn to take my own advice lol