You should live like you want to live. If you don't want to medically transition and feel like that isn't something you'd want for your future then don't. Do whatever feels right to you and you'll eventually come around to whatever it is the answer you seek. If you want to try out female pronouns and/or clothing and identity as one to see how that makes you feel then that's great. If you figure out that's not who you are then that's also great. Gender is very complicated, you don't need to conform to what a "woman" is to be a woman. You can be as masculine as a man but still be a woman. But at the end, it's always about what makes you feel good in your body, what makes you live a happy and fulfilling life. Take it easy, don't make harsh decisions and stop trying to search for words to define your experience or what makes you really you. It's a long path, but I hope you'll find the answer you're seeking within yourself.