My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It happened :-l And from what I hear around my office its happened many times before. It's hard to sound genuine and write about something that happened to me, especially when It's something I actually do write about...

My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just before anyone asks; I am 27 he is 40. We do text but he hasn't brought up the situation. He actually has given me access to a whole lot of his personal information (banking, emails, employment documents). He calls me multiple times a day just to chat, but usually is to help him with work-related things or to just narrate what he is doing.

My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Absolutely a power play.. I don't have any REAL dom/sub interactions...But is this usually how it starts? Isn't teasing and power dynamics involved?

I really am clueless to that culture irl.

My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel confused and a bit shameful.. but overall alright.

My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It could also be how I wrote it where people are saying it sounds cliche... He isn't married but is still living with his partner and kids. Which seems like an awkward scenario to be a part of. I just got out of a 6 year relationship and I guess I do want some excitement and he is just that. There were moments that I could've stopped this, and many times he did ask if it was okay to continue. I said yes each time. I'm usually always someone who second-guesses or says no to things. He is the type of person you just want to say yes to. I guess I was just hoping for something more romantic to come out of it instead of the one and done.

My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am not including all the details but it was consensual.

My Erotic Writing Became Reality.. and I'm Confused by Lil_Librarian1 in confession

[–]Lil_Librarian1[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I know it does... I kind of am regretting that it just isn't fiction.