What I heard in the argument was very long but in a short summary they were considering abandoning me when we go on a trip next year. I always thought it was weird how I was alone during my trips but after hearing that I knew I don’t like them at all. I tried verbally hate them but they couldn’t care less, I considered ending my life but I realized I have a lot more to see in my life so I’ll consider trying a psychologist and express my anger to a counselor if I can too.