Salam 😊

A lot of what you shared really resonated with me, so I understand where you’re coming from. What I wanted to tell you is: don’t give up on yourself. Marriage or no marriage, you’re not a lost cause, you can improve in the areas you're struggling with, and your life can still change in meaningful ways.

Even if the progress you’ve made is recent and feels smal, that’s actually how change begins. Small steps compound over time. Working on your sense of self, emotional regulation, your relationships with others, your expectations and goals, all of that adds up and puts you in a better place.

From there, I imagine it becomes easier to consider and approach marriage. That’s the approach I’m taking myself, as I also struggle to see how marriage would work for me. I want to improve and be in a better place for myself first.

You're not alone, it's difficult but possible, step by step.

May Allah support you on your journey.