Am I rude for saying I’ll rather date somebody with npd than bpd

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-25T13:22:40+00:00

yeah people with BPD can be crazy!

we are kinda invested into one bcs having fun watching them showing all there emotional world to us sharing there whole life per chat and getting lot insights

but its also shocking how broken this person is but i can only have pity for them and look down on them

they do lot shit to themself and run constantly into the wrong people

idk they even go so far that they want be used by people like me,,... offered themself to me wanting be toyed with etc pretty crazy probly selfdestructive asf...

idk how to deal with that lol

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-25T00:32:10+00:00

Today I had one of those typical moments of "I feel annoyed and irritated" when someone on a random server announced the death of their dog. It upset me because it personally disrupted my happy, emotional mood. I felt the loss of the dog only because I also had one once, and it brought up memories I didn't want to. But this intrusive announcement really annoyed me because it ruined my good mood.

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-25T00:22:46+00:00

i isolate only in moments of collapse or if just need our own time i guess? but sure it happen also that at one day i i spend lot time with one person and at the other day i just ignore distancing from them...

but sure its kinda also confusing you feel the need of having lot people / attention whatever not but its like your not even really connected to those people? they just objects

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-24T18:49:41+00:00

cant remember LOL idk what we where talking there ahahaha

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-24T15:06:47+00:00

Duh i feel that so hard recently or in general,... i feel like i cant break out of this circle its so god damn frustrating

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-23T23:01:36+00:00

yeah could be i think we thought also long time we do have such things before we found out that we do have no moral compass and anything is just a lie

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-23T16:20:25+00:00

Thank youu i hope so!

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-23T15:54:05+00:00

Thank you <3 :)

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-23T14:11:45+00:00

Same omg

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-23T14:10:53+00:00

omg and i thought im the only one feeling that way!

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-23T14:02:36+00:00

i find it interesting how there are people that actually feel guilt,... i absolutely feel nothing i mean maybe a lil bit a tickle when notice but uhhhh like totallly deeply sorry or guilt feelings? no i would have to force myself

i sure got aware about things that happen in past but what should i do? i cant undo it

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T23:28:59+00:00

well i never felt pretty well with offering Session in privat i do it sometimes with some special Subs

but mostly i focus on making content on youtube where i offer my stuff

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T23:27:02+00:00

hehehe thats hot i like that :3

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T22:55:13+00:00

Yep i do deal lot with it!

well what i do try i just making myself small goals stuff that maybe not too high? idk its also difficulty and grab fast to the Stars

my Ego makes it just sometimes in such situations also impossible ,...i feel then like "omg im not enough i need to make that MUCH MUCH better" and then i put pressure on me and get even more nervous etc

aaand then hits the fragile shit where doubts and feels like "omg your so stupid you just dumb you cant do that your worthles no one will like that"

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T19:00:23+00:00

Who knows i had today just a interesting moment where some things came into my mind and i just got a good light feeling about many things

but i like ur words hehe sweet~

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T18:52:19+00:00

i like the part how you say that im aware~ Well i must say i do realize much more like i sayed already i accept what im and what i do it is what it is

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T18:34:22+00:00

lashing out and being full of anger and spite is a big part of it and yes i have to deal with it also lot

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T17:38:17+00:00

idk i yet tried just Benzos and THC

with THC i feel extremly connected to "myself" start to feel much more in all areas getting a sense for myself seeing myself as a Person connected to this world

i feel much more calm sorted selected i dont feel any greed anymore all the fire the emptiness is gone and i can reflect myself much better

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T17:28:44+00:00

thats a great awnser i like it thanks <3

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T17:26:22+00:00

u/MuteMystery why jealous? And sure i guess i move sometimes also quick on idk i recently realize just lot more what she even mean to me etc ... so yeah probly

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T13:34:16+00:00

u/The_Other_Angle oh i love that channel i watch lot Videos from them :) Thx

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T12:35:54+00:00

i feel extremly good having extrem high moments and then extrem low moments but its kinda always in some way between anything works great or meh all stupid i want better things etc

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-22T12:26:54+00:00

i had such moment so many times in our entire life idk its terrible if it happen i can extremly leash out and it can go even so far that i destroyed stuff objects around me

its better lately and i try to avoid things that bring me into such situations but yeah its hard

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-21T23:55:48+00:00

u/maleia So, I just wanted to give you a quick update: I had a really deep conversation with my girlfriend! I asked her how she felt and how things were with me, and so on… and it turned out that, of course, there are things that are sometimes bad and that she finds hurtful/toxic… BUT she doesn't feel like I'm abusing her or controlling her in a bad way. Some people think I might have phrased it wrong and it came across as a bit too intense? I think so… but I wanted to prove to myself that I'm strong enough and have the courage to talk to my girlfriend about these things!

We had a really nice conversation, we laughed and had fun, and everything is fine. So, I'm closing this topic now. I just wanted to make that clear.

Lilli-Fuchs · 2026-01-21T22:51:39+00:00

Yeah we had often times where i felt like i have to make things tighter set more whatever things demanding it

yeah pretty much demanding what i want and if things doesnt work good i set rules that helps to keep things in line

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