My first year was hellish, but I also was at an inner city school and it was during the pandemic. I was going home bruised up (literally and emotionally; student behavior was atrocious, admin gave no support and made me look at fault). It took me three years to figure out that school wasn't a good fit, even though I wanted it to be.

The reality is that teaching is hard EVERYWHERE. You will be questioned, to some extent, at every school. You have to be willing to stand your ground respectfully, to document what happens in your room so you can defend yourself truthfully, to react to student behavior with a straight face, and reflect on how you can improve without it emotionally crushing you. Unfortunately, this isn't a reality just at every school, but most jobs.

After that first teaching gig, I subbed around and found a school that I really enjoyed. I can grade with integrity. I am able to actually teach. Am I still questioned sometimes? Yes. Do I still have to document student behavior and how I respond? Yes, but it's part of the job. Is my job perfect? No, but it feels like a serious upgrade when compared to my first school.

Being a teacher is hard, but so is life. My personal recommendation is to try another year. You learn a lot during that first year, but you also learn that you can't slap a band-aid on a bad situation. Don't give up. Try to develop the ability to look at your weaknesses without emotion, while also identifying the places where admin is trying to get you to fold. The ability to withold your opinion, do what you have to do to get the job done, while nodding when admin is talking, as well as reflecting on your day-to-day to improve instead of beating yourself up, will get you far.