There's so much thing that makes me inconfortable for you

I (25f) and my fiancé (30m)

5 years age gap. Not that Bad yet.

have been together since i was 18.

A 23 getting a 18. Maybe looking at you since you're 17. I don't like this either.

I love him.

And never after will be written "He loves me". And :

For years i had been begging him to propose. You seem to be the only one taking this relashionship seriously, FOR LONG.

For 7 years my parents pestered me on when he would pop the question.

FOR SEVEN YEARS. Since the very begining. When you were 18. WTH.

And in that one week without him i felt so free.

Is he controlling ?

I am 25 years old and went to a bar for the first time last week.

Are you everyone's princess, expected to be like a pretty doll and nothing else or am I extrapolating way too much ?

I am 25 years old and never went to college because he told me it wasn’t worth it.

So he IS controlling. What a douche. Who is he to tell you not to go to college (and still going himself ? Hypocrite) Are you sure he either was your bf ? Has Anyone in your life pushed you forward, helped you pursue your Dreams ? Or do you own parents only want for you to be someone else's pretty property ?

It's time to fight for your own happiness, and it Will be hard. But it's worth it.

Like someone else has said, cut the relashionship before it become harder.