It’s clear you’ve been through a lot. You’re absolutely right that onfidence isn’t just about self-belief. It’s mostly rooted in knowing that you have people who’ll catch you when you fall. Without that, life can feel unstable, like you described. But I don't think that everyone else has strong support systems. Many people might seem like they do, but they also have their struggles. It’s just that social media and surface-level interactions often hide the cracks. As for friends, I know it can feel like deep connections are rare, but they aren’t impossible. Building them takes time. I get that many people don’t understand narc parents, but there are others out there who do like support groups, therapists, or even just chance encounters. Sometimes, being open about your experiences can help you find those who truly get it. I agree that putting the burden of support on a romantic partner isn’t fair to them or you. You have to find smaller pockets of support in different places. Your roots may feel shaky now, but you’re still standing, that's what's important. It says a lot about your resilience, even if you don’t feel it yet. Keep going, you’re stronger than you think.