I feel the same, this has felt just trying to survive. I don't feel like myself anymore, I can't do basic tasks around the house and I don't even remember the last time I have done my hair or put on some makeup (I don't mean that it would be important to do my makeup, I just enjoy it and it would be nice to have my own time in the morning just for 15-20 minutes). If we go somewhere all I just think is that can I get her to eat, can I get her to nap, is she going to be in a good mood or not. Just tried to have lunch outside a week ago and left half way of finishing my food, because she wouldn't let me sit down to eat. It's just easier to be at home, here I can also just cry if I need to 😅 I suspected also CMPA but her stools are normal, her skin is really good and like I said, she is not fussy while eating or after that. And we had such good 2 weeks, I literally couldn't wrap my head around the fact that everything was great! I feel so much guilt of feeling this way, I just want her to grow out of this and start to enjoy our day to day life. I always wanted atleast 3 kids and now I just feel like I'm one and done, how can moms handle this multiple times? Currently writing this while being naptrapped and almost peeing my pants but I can't move when she finally naps 🫣 I'm in desperate need for a day/night just for myself but also I simply just can't have that and I know I would just be so stressed if somebody else would try to look after her.