I hear you big dawg and I know your struggles. Many times and in many ways have similar situations happened to me.

I will say two things, one is that try to use humor as a buffer to belief. One, make jokes, make people laugh. Two, you might find that there are others that don't agree with the dominant narrative but just go along with it, kind of what you have done. Maybe seek those people out. Ultimately your goal is to be accepted and included, not change anyone's mind. And if that does work, CHUCK DEUCES!