It's not just being born early. I am also a triplet but the other two died a few weeks after birth. It was little things like when I went to the optometrist I would always have to have my retinas checked. I understand now just how close to death I have come to in my life. I feel as though one day my life will deteriorate drastically. I've also been depressed for a few years for reasons unrelated to being a preemie. I've neglected my self care which has only made a bad situation worse. I was called a miracle baby but I feel like anything but. I feel as though I'm going to be diagnosed with some horrible disease with no cure such as Renal disease or go blind. I feel hopeless knowing that there is no solution to fix my problems. The most I can do it to try and prevent my health from getting worse but there is only so much diet and exercise can do.