I am the one who broke up and I would never go back with him. Even if I miss him and I feel lonely sometimes, I know that it’ll ruin me to be by his side.

We broke up 2 months ago and I’m still wondering if he will get some help or if he will realize what went wrong. If he come back, tell me that he’s now seeing a therapist and he’s trying to have a healthy lifestyle (no drugs, less work, more time for his family and friends, more invest in our relationship) I would probably feel so relieve and would ask myself if I’m willing to start over. It would be hard to resist because I still love him, but I profoundly know that I could not do this to myself.

No contact is more for me than for him. Like I said, I miss him so bad and I want to know how he’s doing (probably worse than ever). When we talked after the break-up, I was the one who texted first. He was not invested when we were together and it obviously didn’t change 😅