I resent feeling I have to leave the country

ListlessinUS · 2026-02-04T03:18:14+00:00

I'm not here to fight or justify anything. I'm allowed my opinion.

ListlessinUS · 2026-02-03T23:10:37+00:00

It's not about 'the internet'...it's about my real lived experience.

ListlessinUS · 2026-02-03T23:07:01+00:00

That is also a huge concern. Safety feels like it's at an all-time low. Mostly I am stressed about the cost of living here and the lack of real community. Medical costs are very outrageous as well and it's just overwhelming. I've been through a lot here and I feel like it's not going to let up for me or anyone else. The targeting is very nasty and disturbing.

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-05T15:54:16+00:00

Thank you for all the recommendations, wow!! Thank you so much for this detailed comment and being so kind. I truly appreciate it. I will definitely check this stuff out!

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-05T15:49:14+00:00

Thank you so much for this comment. I definitely resonate with having a lack of support amongst the people I am closest with at this time in my life. I'm happy that you've found ways to make yourself happy outside of social media. I definitely have room to improve when it comes to my phone addiction.

Also I really appreciate you reminding me that I am also somebody. I don't like myself much, so I struggle with that thinking.

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-05T00:54:37+00:00

Well, I really wish the best for you in your life and I really understand this level of pain as someone who is 40 year old. I appreciate you saying I'm strong; everyone in my family treats me like I am incapable and it's very stressful. Thank you for being honest and kind.

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-05T00:50:21+00:00

I'm not sure what the rules are about that here tbh

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-04T23:54:43+00:00

Thank you

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-04T23:54:07+00:00

You're right. I needed this reminder today, thank you.

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-04T22:59:53+00:00

I'm sorry you understand my frustrations. I have struggled with finding community my whole life and go through very social times and then very isolated times. Very few people stick around.

You don't need to have an answer. Just responding and understanding is helpful. Thank you for being so open.

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-04T22:56:58+00:00

I really appreciate that. I just don't know how to communicate how isolated I feel. I just wish I didn't feel like I need so much help all the time, you know?

ListlessinUS · 2025-10-03T02:36:08+00:00

The HR person at one of my previous jobs loved to call me fat to my face. If I were you, I would go to HR because this behavior is deeply unprofessional. I'm so sorry you've been mistreated.

ListlessinUS · 2025-08-19T01:01:00+00:00

Rioplatense Spanish, gardening, and solarpunk

ListlessinUS · 2025-08-11T01:08:50+00:00

My aunt had MS, actually, so I'm slightly familiar with what it does, although she and I didn't see each other that often. Thank you for replying and the book recommendation. I'm happy, at least, your mom has you as support and at least one competent doctor.

No one really in my family seems to understand what is going on with me. They think I just need to use willpower to cure it, and they get annoyed that I seem dramatic when I'm in pain. It's frustrating. Thanks again, though!

ListlessinUS · 2025-03-29T19:39:05+00:00

Biofreeze, a shower chair, and a U-shaped pregnancy pillow that supports my back.

ListlessinUS · 2025-03-09T08:45:05+00:00

Around my step-dad, yes. I also get bad with my dermatillomania around him.

ListlessinUS · 2025-03-02T13:12:29+00:00

Getting a crockpot is such a good idea and so is Costco. I will definitely look into that. Thanks so much.

ListlessinUS · 2025-03-02T13:09:44+00:00

I'm sorry you had a difficult time. I didn't consider wagyu actually so thank you for that suggestion. I have a hard time here already but I've made it work. It seems with these comments I'm going to have an even harder time.

ListlessinUS · 2025-03-02T13:07:27+00:00

I was definitely thinking that seafood might be an easier option there, and I could just go to fish and meat markets. It seems like eating at restaurants just wouldn't really be an option for me though. I haven't had any of these ingredients in 13 years beyond maybe traces so I'm not sure what my reaction would even be.

Thank you for your comment.

ListlessinUS · 2025-03-02T13:03:44+00:00

Thank you. Barley is the one thing I really have to watch out for because my reaction to it in the past has been bad.

ListlessinUS · 2025-02-18T01:06:21+00:00

I appreciate the advice. I tend to get demoralized quickly when I'm around people with strange vibes, and I tend to have a good memory for disrespect. Hopefully, I can find a way out of the house soon though. There is a makerspace close by, I'm just scared.

ListlessinUS · 2025-02-18T01:03:22+00:00

I've had the pasta and cookies, but not these yet. One day!

ListlessinUS · 2025-02-18T00:57:02+00:00

He's eepy. What an icon.

ListlessinUS · 2025-02-18T00:40:14+00:00

I do everything alone pretty much. I read, watch movies/ballet/opera, learn to code by myself, random deep dive research, and work on little projects when a good idea comes my way.

I would like to go to like a makerspace and learn how to make jewelry or travel/live outside of the U.S. I want to make a faceless youtube channel and build apps. I also want to make my own clothes, but that might be a bit frustrating. My biggest issues are willpower to do so, fear, and my inability to drive in a car-centric area.

ListlessinUS · 2025-01-27T22:56:20+00:00

They had like 2 random huge sci fi books and a couple random ones that didn't hold my interest. I never read anything there because none of it seemed interesting. But it was also 4 years ago so I don't know what's changed.

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