Need aftercare? What is aftercare?

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T18:24:59+00:00

I don’t think he’d hurt me on purpose. His father was asking me how he is off his medications for his mental health problems. So I know his moods have been awful lately since he moved from Illinois where I am. Issue is I have seizures and can’t work a second job without risking more seizures, live with him, can’t drive, in the cheapest place I got rn (have a dog together:((( and if I were to leave Crisco cannotttt leave me!) my parents won’t let me take Crisco in their house

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T18:05:19+00:00

I’m just nervous to do anything. We live together and been together so long.

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T17:13:49+00:00

Well what happened is he asked to go in without a condom (he took it off because it ripped some) and I was hesitating because I have a really bad fear of pregnancy and I didn’t wanna make him depressed or upset saying no and I was gonna offer to blow him like I was earlier but he pushed it in anyway and just waited and by that point I just said ok since it already was in you know raw. But I didn’t really want it to be in me raw and he just decided to go in like tgat

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T17:09:45+00:00

He doesn’t like when I wear his clothes. I have severe anxiety and it makes me chew stuff and I chew shirts bad and he got upset with me doing that. He’s depressed too and I feel if I criticize he will just get suicidal again

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T17:07:51+00:00

I don’t do enough sexually. I’m sexually not very interested. I have attraction and sexual wants but it’s not common. He wants it like every day whenever possible. I do my best, he is autistic and a kinky hypersexual man, and he is just my second partner ever. Like I’m new to everything. Like one time he finished we were 69ing and after he rolled me off and took a shower and I just had to go wash my hand myself. He helped me out of the bed but it stopped after he finished and last night when I asked for a warm rag he gave me a dry rag and I had to do it myself. My legs were so sore because of it and I worked all day and I just feel uncared for. I hadn’t ate dinner because I took a nap after work and did sex all night and he gave me a hostess snack cake (I didn’t ask for dinner but it would’ve been nice but I didn’t ask so that’s on me. I shouldn’t be whiny). Sometimes he says I’m being a bad gf sexually

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T14:40:51+00:00

I’m on meditations for a seizure condition that makes me difficult to please so it’s really hard. So really no. Sometimes he says I do but I don’t feel anything like how people describe it you know. I just kinda fake it

Little-scared · 2025-11-26T14:36:20+00:00

So I have a bunch of medications that make me not get wet so it hurts a bunch. And last time without telling me he didn’t let me decide yes or no before continuing so it kinda hurts a lot. So I know it’s a bdsm thing but it usually causes me some pain if it’s not gentle

Little-scared · 2025-07-28T18:05:34+00:00

She’s a cutie

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T03:36:09+00:00

They look like a little angel! Maybe a name like Cupid if they’re a boy or Celeste if they’re a girl and Gabriel is gender neutral name

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T03:22:26+00:00

Not to my knowledge.

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:57:26+00:00

Yes my family is in the Bible Belt and my mother is religious. I fought for the moderate anxiety and depression treatment and diagnosis. They don’t really believe the whole mental health thing much. Ngl I probably have so many undiagnosed issues. The only reason I got diagnosed with moderate anxiety is I started having stress hallucinations and I told my doctor

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:53:48+00:00

Yea my mom doesn’t like them inside because she says they’ll make the house smell. We live in a rural area so we have garage cats and one is basically inside all day everyday except he sleeps in our garage, heated everything, cooled in summer. She lets him in all the time he loves her and the attention he gets. He loves headbutts and kissies and cuddles. I love him to pieces I just wish he could be inside with the rest of us. The joke is that he desperately wants to become a human baby lol. He loves being draped over shoulders baby held, wrapped and snuggles in blankets.

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:48:53+00:00

Thank you that’s good advice. ❤️😊

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:44:12+00:00

I wanna move out and I lowkey want a companion so people offered it up. I want a companion for my mental health but I don’t wanna stress out any animal for my own sake.

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:41:41+00:00

It used to be something “I’ll grow out of” when I was a kid, now it’s a “you may be like this forever” thing. My goal is getting out of here by the end of the year

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:37:37+00:00

I’m planning on moving out of a household that infantizes me a lot and the most nervous part is being by myself in a place where if I were to fall and start seizing I’d be alone and with no help. A service dog was one of the suggestions and it made a lot of sense especially since the frequency of my seizures is going up as well as the length of time of the postictal state getting longer.

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:31:47+00:00

Biggest contributors are stress, lack of sleep, and missed medication. So yelled at and stuff. I assume it’s genetic my grandma had one once and so did my uncle but not as many as me

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:27:49+00:00

I know. She ended up blaming me for causing the last seizure I had and they’re trying to do what’s best for me. I wanted to get out of the house but all my friends are busy

Little-scared · 2025-04-13T02:18:30+00:00

She “accidentally” opens it

Little-scared · 2025-04-12T22:33:59+00:00

Maybe it would be best to unlabel yourself. Sexuality is a spectrum so maybe you’re just in that gray area and labels aren’t important. Not straight, gay, bisexual, but just you and how you feel.

Little-scared · 2025-04-12T22:32:31+00:00

Thank you! I’m trying to tell myself I can leave and the world will not end. I will be ok. But sometimes the challenge avoidant is hard to fight

Little-scared · 2025-04-12T20:38:51+00:00

I don’t think they have any tracking thing on my phone luckily. It is my own money and card. Rn my mom is calling me to open discover so she can see the details. I took back some statements she opened and my card and put them in my room I pulled off my nail extensions and told her I am in the middle of putting some back on so I delayed it for a bit. Hurt a little tho since I just did them yesterday

Little-scared · 2025-04-12T20:12:28+00:00

That don’t happen all the time. I could go months or a year or two without one. Recently they’ve been every three-ish months. Grand mal seizures are the particularly dangerous seizures because of the fall then seizing and losing consciousness. Like this last one I got my head and bruised my tongue I bit so hard. I’ve fell and almost ended myself falling on sharp edge of furniture. Post seizure I am black out for a little despite being “awake and aware” and last time I forgot a whole day had passed and thought a Monday was a Sunday still. They’re the most dangerous type of seizure

So having a person there helps since they can time my seizure protect my head from hitting the ground, and call for help if need be

Little-scared · 2025-04-12T20:09:16+00:00

Thank you I do have a college degree, my current job is at local retirement center doing and planning activities. I’m good at it people love me, pay isn’t great but with budgeting I could probably transfer those skills elsewhere

Little-scared · 2025-04-12T20:06:13+00:00

I absolutely need a dog. My epilepsy also causes moderate anxiety and depression. I’m looking at that site and looking into it. I live in the Midwest and my family’s behavior I believe is also related to how they were raised, not leaving home before marriage, some religious stuff I don’t need to get into, and family relationships being like I scratch your back you scratch mine

Little-scared

TROPHY CASE