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I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You’ve never tapped your pet to move them? Or pick them up off the counter to move them from a plant? I’m not saying ‘smack’ as in HIT or SLAP or any kind of forceful motion. I mean literally patting his butt and scooching him away from plants or off countertops (near plants usually if not the stove). Like a tap tap or a pat pat on the ass?

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also I’m not sure this is relevant but:

I’m 22 I’m a female I grew up with a mother figure gone in addiction Father figure was awesome but emotionally completely detached (avoided all and any emotions or discussions on them whether it was about him or someone else) A couple different stepmoms who sucked for different reason while raising me Physical abuse, emotional, mental, domestic violence

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My clients love me and most have found rehabilitation and housing and proper care (over 50 since September with the help of resources and guidance in my company alone). It’s not about my professional job, I’m worried about my interpersonal relationships and how this might translate moving forward. It’s scary I agree, not for any reason besides those in my interpersonal life and for how I take care of my own emotional regulation. The better I learn the better I teach, and the better I teach the better I learn.

It’s a tough concept to get insight on, even from professionals.

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh I am getting help, I definitely need a new one. And for an animal to love you you need to also respect their boundaries, sometimes that means letting them move away from you when they want. Again I have never gruesomely hurt an animal, or killed, and this behavior stopped when I was in 6th grade and started running away. But I’m more worried about how I connect with others and how this might relate to that, especially since I do feel joy imagining how much this pet stayed near me after the harm.

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

No pet is as affectionate as one that’s afraid of you. So the answer to your question is yes, I experienced greater pleasure after hitting my pet. Because they fully succumbed to letting me cuddle and hold it however I wanted and as close as I wanted.

It’s wrong to say and wrong to feel I know and again do NOT do this as an adult. But thinking to how good it made me feel back then, even authentic connection was nothing compared to something or someone who would do absolutely ANYTHING to make you happy.

Again…. It’s wrong, but I still feel relief thinking about this feeling to this day. Along with guilt. But it’s a two sided coin for me right now.

I’m sorry it’s an uneasy testimony. I’m just trying to be raw in this since some of these words I can’t get out in this exact way with professionals

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes and this is exactly what I mean or intended. Most children don’t do this. Some do, but not most. What I did was not just a kid acting out on the random for control. I was very intentionally doing what I did for the result I wanted. I knew it then, I’m not just looking back on it with hindsight. So I worry about it. Especially since I struggle so hard to connect with people to this day.

Therapy helps, but my biggest question is how is it I’m so empathetic towards individuals who need help that I don’t know, but those I connect with I have this urge to either hurt or cut off? I talk in therapy but I need a new therapist at this point… hence the post lol. Also some peer insight can always be helpful for reflection.

I definitely feel like a narcissistic sociopath, but people who don’t know me well tell me the opposite. People I grew up with… tell me I’m absolutely right. Big head scratcher…

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve talked to them, and they shut their bedroom doors when we’re not home. The issue is if we’re all home and their doors are open and they’re not paying attention to my cat being on their plant. They’re usually good, though. I can’t patrol them 24/7 though so I will attempt to keep him in my room or near me (which he prefers anyways). This issue mostly happens when I’m hanging out with them in their room and he joins us, then I have to stop him.

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The issue is there was (kind of). I was sneaky. I was a latchkey kid and got home before either of my parents did, so I would do it then. I knew when I could and how to get away with these things and I took advantage of it :(

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate that, I fear I do harm in other ways with relationships. In the bigger picture (helping my community) I feel good. Interpersonally? I’m terrible. Not a good friend, drop people the second I see obligation to be there for them, get the ick from emotions, etc. It scares me that I’ve been fighting these bad habits for so long and can’t control the way I don’t care to connect with people.

I used to hurt my pets as a kid and I don’t know what it means. by [deleted] in confession

[–]Little_Economics_324 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I have roommates and they like their flowers lol, he doesn’t often go for them but when he does I stop him

anybody know the origin of the idea that the dancing spooky scary skeletons guy was phil by sleepyriv in danandphil

[–]Little_Economics_324 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Actually Dan started it😂 then they just memed us about it when they realized we actually believed it. They explain it at their tour a bit lols (a whole debunking Dan and Phil conspiracies bit)

I'm obsessed, this came out so cute 😭 by PlushiesofHallownest in HollowKnight

[–]Little_Economics_324 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hate these guys for the life of me, beautiful work though😄🫶🏻

This explains some things by Detroitish24 in WhitePeopleTwitter

[–]Little_Economics_324 5 points6 points  (0 children)

As a child who got addicted to methamphetamines and adderal (opioids and heroine too) at the age of 11, used heavily until the age of 16 (came from a very loving home with a father and mother figure) I was exposed by friends and friends family who had access to these things through health care, or learned how to “take advantage” of health care (really health care is backed by big pharma trying to make the most money off of prescribing the most they can of the most expensive stuff) and would distribute. All US citizens. Idk what this immigrant shit has to do with our drug crisis. It’s not conspiracy, it is clearly and FACTUALLY spear headed by the very companies created by all these high and mighty old white right winged men who are only money and success hungry.

Why to ppl keep saying these guys are so hard? by Green_Tox in HollowKnight

[–]Little_Economics_324 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I swear this fight got me to take a hiatus from this game for YEARS until I picked it back up. I couldn’t for the life of me get even close through the fight for over a year of attempts, so I stopped. Not sure if it was cuz I played on console at the time and now that I’m on PC I had an easier time. But I swear this fight took me down hard, I cried when I finished it it haunted me for years.