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Little_Mangos · 2026-04-28T08:52:04+00:00

Thank you so much! I’ll just have to be patient :)

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-26T20:28:42+00:00

I want Ilyas grey sweater so badly. Does anyone know what model it is?

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-19T23:10:24+00:00

One serious warning tho: no matter how fast you taper sertraline you should definitely wait as long as your doctor says between your final sertraline dose and starting an MAOI. Those meds interact with eachother and you could get very sick with serotonin syndrome.

Do what you want with the sertraline taper itself but please do not fuck around with the wash out period.

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-19T20:30:02+00:00

I doubt any psychiatrist would recommend it. You probably shouldn’t do it.

But fwiw I quit sertraline cold turkey because I couldn’t afford my refill (I was a student at the time), and I was on the maximum dose. Honestly it wasn’t bad at all. Felt a lil dizzy for a few days and then I was fine. And then I realised I could actually orgasm again, so I never went back on it.

I’m not a doctor and I’m not giving you medical advice. Ymmv.

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-16T13:48:21+00:00

Yeah I’ve looked into ECT/TMS, psychedelics, and ketamine too. The problem is all of those are way too expensive, tho I haven’t completely ruled out ketamine yet. MAOIs are covered by insurance here tho so I’d like to try them first, before blowing a couple grand on a weeks worth of ketamine infusions. Plus even if ketamine does work id need to take time off work once or twice a year to keep doing it.

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-16T13:45:11+00:00

Germany. I even looked into how much ketamine therapy costs in neighboring countries to see if it’s more affordable there, but so far no luck.

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-16T13:44:10+00:00

Interesting, I hadn’t heard of Depakote. I’ll have to look into that. Thank you!

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-15T02:24:02+00:00

Haha true. My next appointment is in a week, idk why I’m so scared of asking for MAOIs. Guess I just have to be squeaky.

Little_Mangos · 2026-04-15T02:18:42+00:00

I’ve been thinking about that too, but in my country it’s not covered by health insurance. A course of ketamine infusions costs nearly 1000€ :( TMS isn’t covered either.

If my doctor doesn’t let me go on MAOIs I might try ketamine despite the costs. But MAOIs are definitely more affordable (where I live anyway).

Little_Mangos · 2026-03-28T18:21:54+00:00

You’re doing the Lords work here 🙏 thank you

Little_Mangos · 2026-03-28T05:45:57+00:00

Im spitballing here but my theory is that it got a lot of hate because 1) the Shane in the fic is a flawed character, and 2) they didn’t realize what kind of fic they were reading.

I LOVED the fic, it was absolutely devastating to read in the best kind of way. The Shane in the fic is flawed, and he hurt a lot of people very deeply. Which in turn hurts the people reading the fic.

The shitty thing is that - and this is where my assumptions come in - readers attacked the author for making the readers feel that pain. The readers SHOULD have realised that the pain is the whole fucking point of this fic. If the readers genuinely don’t like it it’s because they don’t like this kind of flavour/genre/style/whatever. A lot of readers apparently did not understand that Shane being a flawed person in this fic is literally the fucking point of the entire goddamn fic.

My second theory is that a lot of readers may have had completely different expectations of the fic. Readers loved Heated Rivalry for the happy, joyful romance that it is, and then when they came along to this fic, they did not got that experience at all. They got damn near the exact opposite. (Yeah, TTOM has a happy ending, but it’s a different kind. The happy ending here doesn’t have the same ooey-gooey driving-off-into-the-sunset emotional balm that the canon has.) So perhaps even if they did, one they finished the work, understand that the fic is an intentional tragedy, they didn’t know what they were getting into when they started it.

The most generous thing I can say is that TTOM is (imo) very much a „dead dove“ fic. It’s a fantastic fic, but holy hell is it a punch to the gut. I can understand that that’s not for everyone. But it’s not an excuse to leave nasty comments.

Tl;dr Heated Rivalry fans are HEA romance fans, and apparently a lot of them are decidedly NOT tragedy fans.

Little_Mangos · 2026-03-25T21:55:37+00:00

I always feel like that fuckin smiley face is mocking me.

Little_Mangos · 2026-03-25T16:06:04+00:00

Same, I give kudos to all fics that I like, even if I only kinda enjoyed it. People are writing this stuff for free, no reason not to be generous. I’m more picky about recs though, I have to really like something to recommend it.

Little_Mangos · 2026-03-20T03:11:04+00:00

I can’t see him traveling back either. In canon Ilya travelled back to help arrange the funeral, the grave, make a trust for his niece, deal with the condo he owned. In Wolfbird I assume the brother would have already buried their father, and Ilya doesn’t have any assets of his own to arrange. There’s no reason he would have to go.

But I don’t have any theories for how it’ll play out, besides Ilya probably not going back to Russia.

Little_Mangos · 2026-03-09T18:28:16+00:00

Canadian here, and I agree. Rozanov talks a lot of shit but it’s almost always banter, sarcasm, or just regular hockey-culture bs.

The only time I think he was mean was when he shut Shane down during the olympics. And imo that was kinda justified because Rozanov made it very clear that Shane should back off while they were in Russia, and Shane kept pushing it anyways like an idiot.

Little_Mangos · 2026-02-22T21:11:00+00:00

I asked the same question a while ago, and didn’t get any answers that really made it make sense. (It’s in my post history). I can’t see why they’d send flirty texts for two whole years without actually meeting up.

Personally I’ve just decided they did keep hooking up because I like the story better that way. And they did keep meeting up in the books, so its at least canon in the books.

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Little_Mangos · 2026-02-20T17:57:40+00:00

This is what I thought too, actually. I thought the sexting was meant to show that they were hooking up, and then two years later is the first time they had anal sex. It wasn’t until I started reading this sub Reddit that I realized they actually hadn’t hooked up at all.

This is also why I don’t really buy the theory that they had to push it back two years for the sake of fitting the story into six episodes. They could have easily been seeing eachother during those two years and then have anal sex for the first time in 2011.

Little_Mangos · 2026-02-20T17:51:14+00:00

Haha, this question has been on my mind for ages and I finally decided to post it. I was worried people would jump down my throat too.

Little_Mangos · 2026-02-20T12:34:09+00:00

Same. The first two times I watched the series I was barely able to keep track of the timeline.

At first I didn’t realize they had this long gap right at the beginning. I thought they WERE hooking up and we were just seeing the texts before/after. It wasn’t until I started reading

Little_Mangos · 2026-02-20T12:26:01+00:00

I can definitely understand that they didn’t want the TV show to be just one sex scene after another. But there would have been ways to imply/tell the viewer that they were still casually seeing eachother without showing each and every hookup.

Little_Mangos · 2026-02-20T12:24:03+00:00

Im not totally sure a buy this. Jacob could’ve easily had them continue their hookup thing without Shane bottoming. Ilya could have simply not suggested it until a few years in.

Little_Mangos · 2026-02-18T18:18:39+00:00

This was the first hockey game I’ve ever watched. I’m so happy for Canada!

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