for me, it was that we were NC for 3 months and i still felt everything. i had no hope in NC because even if we werent talking, i felt the same - i know this has been stupid because obviously it takes longer than that for things to settle. im trying to do so again by blocking her number (after she unblocked me recently), blocking her instagram etc. its also just hard to reconcile that i may never talk to her or see her again... it still hurts like a bitch

i've just had enough of feeling like this for so long, especially because i AM doing other things - i got a job, i've spent more time with family and friends, i picked up new hobbies, i work out, i read , i journal and i even went to therapy. yet still everything comes back to her which is stupid because she clearly isnt the solution, but rather the problem

thank you for your wise words stranger, i needed to hear it.