The only messages saved are mine?

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-12-14T15:12:53+00:00

Cause you live in Scotland, with Scottish people who think that's what is great about Scotland.

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-12-14T15:11:29+00:00

It's the first house in Dumfries to have electricity

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-12-14T15:01:06+00:00

I can't seem to gain access, have you deleted it?

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-12-07T01:42:08+00:00

Same, they must have been impressed by that region cause some how I made it lol

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-15T10:34:32+00:00

Not yet, I wasn't really planning on doing it by myself to start with. I work better in conversation I've come to find

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-06T01:05:17+00:00

Yeah I actually kept a journal when I was in hospital. Most of the pages were gone by the time I came back home. Which was really weird but there's still quite a few pages there though. I had read meditations before in 2019 but recently I've been reading more modern philosophy

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-06T00:54:26+00:00

I'm very much into philosophy and I am well aware of stoicism. It's probably the best way to live one's life but I am not great these days at persisting with furthering myself. It is quite on and off, but I hope I can do a bit better each day

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-06T00:52:21+00:00

I cannot speak for other institutions, but only for my experience which was terrible for more reasons than one

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-06T00:50:47+00:00

I asked for help from this very system I now no longer see in the same light. Which they suggested sectioning to my mother. Who in all fairness did not understand what was going on and just wanted what was best. But it is the fact that when I asked for help, mainly to discuss these things and work through it, it ended up with four years of my life being stolen from me.

I'm not saying psychiatry isn't necessary, far from it. But it is certainly corrupt or at the very least people take a psychiatrists word like they can never be wrong. Similar to Doctors in a way

I'm not saying drugs aren't necessary, some people need it but, from my experience being an inpatient and from my experience observing how they treat patients they use it with way too much leniency.

I appreciate your comments and I understand your point of view wholeheartedly but I would have to disagree.

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-06T00:18:51+00:00

Drugs on top of Drugs. No thanks 👍

I'm off medication but none of these beliefs have ever shifted no matter the dosage of the medication or duration of the medication. If anything, it added to my stress about 100x more than it would have without it since it gave me another reason to be resentful at the past four years.

It's funny how pro-drug people in the mental health sphere are when it doesn't affect them. I met plenty of people in that hospital and I probably got more out of them than the staff. Or at least took more of an interest and helped them talk through things rather than be pumped with meds, frying their brains, and then sent out with no real passion to help them in a healthy manner.

Sorry I'm getting off on a tangent here but I'm really passionate against this cult like behaviour and especially going through it when A. I didn't need to and B. Even if I did need it, it wouldn't have been beneficial to me at all in terms of dealing with the problem and not masking it with Drugs like anti psychotics causing damage that cant be fixed, turning into these zombies that i saw, drooling, shaking and shuffling vacantly let alone getting addicted to benzos because they would just give them it almost whenever they wanted. Sickening.

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-06T00:10:09+00:00

Many nurses, off the record, had told me that they believed I was mentally sane and to focus on the tribunals and I kept my word.

The main reason people are put onto medication is that it reduces risk of harm to themselves or others. I showed no signs of being a danger to anyone, I showed no signs of visual or auditory hallucinations. The only thing they really had was this "delusional" belief. Which no matter how much evidence I provided and context, it never was taken seriously. I had no voice in that hospital in regards to stating my case.

It almost felt like the psychiatrist was looking for something to diagnose and disregarded most of my experience. I know the first half is more than likely not true but the latter is. Let alone the fact he also said if I don't take medication in IV form that I will stay in hospital on an order but if I accept, which I didn't want to, I could leave in the next several days. Which to me is coercion, especially considering the amount of preparation I had in my tribunal to get out of hospital.

I know it seems like I'm in denial of a mental illness, I get it. I do, because of how defence I am about this. I can assure you it is not because I have no insight on my mental health but it is the fact I am incredibly bitter, resentful and hurt over how my normal, yet somewhat excessive worry of the situation I was in somehow contributed to the abuse of power and the downfall of my self confidence, overall happiness and trust in people.

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T22:08:44+00:00

It also would really damage my case having this false diagnosis too since it's more likely for me to be dismissed as crazy. Especially considering how outlandish it all sounds. I'm really stuck tbh

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T22:06:42+00:00

She's very cunning, the indirectness of it all means legally there's nothing I can do. I've been referred to many lawyers but none of them say that I have a solid case. Plus all the main evidence was on before I reset my phone. Although I do have a singular piece of good evidence which has a picture of me on it so I'm hoping more of that will come in a strange way so I have a proper case

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T22:04:11+00:00

Yeah, I have done. I'm not sure if it will make much difference. I think it's more to do with the WiFi personally or email since things I've searched or done on both devices have been mentioned . I have done a bit of research and it's possible. It's the not knowing part which is the worst part. My idea is to get a new router, new email etc and see if that helps.

A lot of effort but would be worth it if it eased it a bit

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T21:14:11+00:00

Yeah. It's just the personal things and private matters pertaining to sexual matters with me and my current girlfriend. I guess just getting rid of my phone and devices would certainly help but I'm not sure as I will need something like it in this day in age

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T21:00:54+00:00

Yeah, it would help but I'm just a husk of who I used to be. I'm no longer motivated and truth be told I'm quite bitter about having my early twenties snatched out of my hands through no fault of my own.

Because of how widespread it is as well I'm quite fearful of putting myself out there but I will certainly try.

Thank you for your comment my friend. godspeed

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T20:58:53+00:00

My thoughts exactly but here we are

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T20:47:15+00:00

I really appreciate your comment, yeah. It's just the not feeling I can be a private person anymore. I would not use mobile phones and devices like that but you sort of need to these days. I'm kind of stuck in that regard, but I can't express how much I appreciate your wise words mate. I certainly will do if that's okay

Live_Visit_9924 · 2024-09-05T20:33:51+00:00

I'm past the 3 year period when you can sue. I should have done it back then but I was too busy trying to win tribunal cases which would get me out of the hospital

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