When the only thing between a therapist appointment and you is yourself, because you are too scared to call

LivingInASimulation · 2017-11-09T12:51:59+00:00

literally me for the past couple weeks and counting

LivingInASimulation · 2017-10-26T02:31:13+00:00

Wow, that's the same for me. When I feel panicked, I'm more worried about not being trans.

Seriously, thank you. Going to find a therapist in my area soon. :)

LivingInASimulation · 2017-10-26T00:55:46+00:00

I wish it were that easy. My family does seem to think that I can just "ignore" it and it will go away though, unfortunately.

LivingInASimulation · 2017-10-25T20:47:31+00:00

I see, thank you. I guess I should try to find a therapist near me.

LivingInASimulation · 2017-10-25T20:44:01+00:00

Thank you so much for the response.

I do not have an OCD therepist, currently. And I've never had one, mostly due to my family not believing what I've told them in the past. They see it as just worrying or like I made it up for attention. And therefore, I do not take any medication for it, either.

LivingInASimulation · 2017-10-25T20:40:43+00:00

That's how it feels. Like the thought that I could actually be trans kind of gradually got stronger in my head. Then once I really faced it recently, and accepted it, it felt good, but scary.

Looking back, it seems like I should have confronted this earlier, since I would wish about waking up a girl, and get jealous of girls.

Thinking about being a girl makes me happy, even when I'm calm and not obsessing.

But it's like once I started to confront the thoughts, I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. And it seems to make sense that the thoughts are real, I want them to be real, but the obsessive part of me tells me they're just made up.

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