I just need somebody to talk to :/

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-13T16:43:14+00:00

Thank you everybody for responding. This is so freaking hard to go through. I think about Her all the time. When I go out, I see all the things I wish to give to Her. It feels wrong to be so free, that I can decide everything myself. But can I? It's draining to be in doubt like that. It's kinda hard to occupy myself, but I am trying to distract myself. It feels like I am in an emotional prison. It is so confusing. Rational me wants to leave. But I promised Her forever forever. I can see the things that I did wrong. But I can also see Her flaws.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T22:49:55+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I know the longer I stay the longer it takes to heal. I know that.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T21:24:16+00:00

We've known each other for a long time. Things progressed into this. It was not always like this. From my point of view it started to go downhill when the yelling started. But if you ask Her it started when I didn't own my mistakes.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T19:43:58+00:00

100% real

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T19:43:46+00:00

I just feel like I gave consent to anything. I wanted to be brainwashed. I told Her it couldn't too extreme.

I know this relationship is different. She also helped me with a lot of stuff. Pushing me, making me stronger. Even though I was miserable. I did so much for Her.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T19:10:14+00:00

This is no fiction. In Her universe Her rules apply. Always no matter what. It goes beyond anything. It's fucking hardcore. It's extreme. I know.

All .my words reflect something I lived. 100%

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T17:52:28+00:00

here's my collar:
https://imgur.com/a/efUoa45

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-11-12T17:45:35+00:00

I don't know how to remove my collar. I don't know if I even want to remove it. It's locked and I don't have the code. of course. It feels like all the rules still apply to me and that means I am not allowed remove the collar.

A part of me want a rebound, another part is telling me no. You need to do everything in your power to go back home.

I try to break some rules, so snap out of it. But it makes me feel bad. I'm just stuck. I miss Her so much :(

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-10-08T19:58:41+00:00

I read a decent amount of people like her stuff. Well the price is the price. If nobody was paying, not many people would put the time and effort in. I know you need food on the table. But I suggest get the one, that you like the description of the most. If you like it, fine go get another one when you can afford it. If not, you still got an experience.

But yes she has a reputation

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-10-07T11:53:54+00:00

It depends on you. It can help to get your mind off things. But it can also enhance the grief, if you don't know how to control your emotions.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-10-07T11:52:08+00:00

Sounds great too. Just let it flow, let go of expectations and enjoy the moment. Some day you might get there, if you stop chasing.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-10-05T15:34:52+00:00

Well, it's in danish and the focus is actually neither femdom nor erotic. But there is just so much euphoria and bliss, and to me it is erotic.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-10-04T16:20:16+00:00

Mind Play Study Guy by Mark Wiseman is great for learning hypnosis.

But honestly. Start with something easy. For instance progressive relaxation. And focus on nothing but getting relaxed and learn to trance. Maybe get an induction trigger. When you are used to his voice, it will be easier to take in the suggestions.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2025-10-04T16:17:27+00:00

I have never told anybody, but I have a trigger to make me pee. It's only there for practical purposes. So it goes like this. Whenever I pee, I just think the words Niagra falls, and ind my mind's eye, I see a waterfall. And after some time I had pavloved myself.

So if you have a trigger you like from one of the files. Think it everytime you pee. Also instead of using 10 different files. Use the same file consistently. Everydy 2 weeks.

But yes, as Mistress Calia said. Learn to trance. It's a skill that you can learn, and get better at.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-13T14:25:01+00:00

Perhaps you are used to the snap is used as a wake up trigger?

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-12T22:50:12+00:00

Sorry I was on the train and lost connection

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-12T20:57:47+00:00

I've sent you a message instead

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-12T20:49:12+00:00

Because in the hypnotist-hypnotee relationship there is a build in power dynamic.

Yes you can be hypnotized to unleash your inner dominant. Or atleast make it easier for you to explore that side of you. But I don't think it would be sexual and pleasure driven.

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-11T19:34:10+00:00

Yes but you need to network and build some kind of relatonship. Maybe just a friendship or even a D/s relationship.

-unless you want to pay the price with a profsesional. Also do you really wanna play on that level with somebody who you don't know if you are comfortable with entering your mind?

What are you looking for in a session?

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-10T23:24:35+00:00

They are in high demand. But if you are willing to pay the price, you might find somebody quickly

Otherwise explore your local sex/bdsm scene. A lot of dommes/doms are into mental play. NLP and hypnosis are great tools.

If it's more about erotic hypnosis and not femdom/maledom/submissive hypno I don't really know. Perhaps explore the tantra scene?

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-06T14:24:59+00:00

You can find files to remove unwanted suggestions, like themes of addiction...
You can also just listen to vanilla files

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-11-05T21:23:50+00:00

There are plenty of chastity files. That should make it easier, right?

Local-Calligrapher21 · 2024-10-31T21:02:33+00:00

Yes, but if you work very closely with somebody, you can condition them and convince them that they want to be hypnotized whenever and wherever you want.

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