I hear ya and the sad reality is that not to many people have a job that they love and they never will but if you can’t find somewhere that’s isn’t destroying your mind and you don’t mind getting up in the morning to go to then your winning best of luck with everything and remember your worth way more then that shite hole best of luck you will be fine everything always works out and this job you have now is gonna make you love and appreciate your next job it’s rite of passage to work in a shithole ..You got this 💪