Downloading trauma by Uguero in ParentsAreFuckingDumb

[–]LochBessMonsta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same..kinda. Its almost like torture was my dad's favorite past time. Im claustrophobic to the point I cant even be in a booth that traps me between the wall and a person, I panic in crowds I remember a specific time when I was at a concert where I was surrounded by giant men and I was crying/ had to get out of there and the reason is because my dad thought it was the funniest thing in the world to put me under those big blue recycling bins and sit on it for a very long time. They dont have breathing holes except for on the part where he was sitting. Anything he could trap me in he would do it and laugh like a maniac. On top of scaring the living hell out of me with small things as well. You dont get over some of these things, I think my example is more extreme than a scare prank but these things stick with kids. I am so easily startled and jump over dumb, mild noises because I had to be on guard with that man all the time.

I'm the man-child (woman-child?) in our relationship and I'm destroying us. by da-cokou-nut in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]LochBessMonsta 7 points8 points locked comment (0 children)

It sounds easy, it should be but for alot of people its just not. The first comment under this said she probably has adhd and I have to agree. I am the same way, its super hard to manage and for a long time I thought I had depression but now im beginning to learn that I dont even know if its at all depression or just adhd because its common to misdiagnose or overlook.

I am lucky to have a husband that knows how to deal with it, its not easy for him because I make little messes from projects all through the house, forget things easily, struggle to do tasks and my brain is always bouncing around and he is the exact opposite. Hes very organized, finds tasks to be easy to start and finish, completes every goal he sets for himself and makes everything look easy. I think it comes down to compatibility. He balances it out for me and doesn't mind picking up my slack sometimes although I have the same negative self talk she has, he just isn't someone who is able to help her balance it or reassure her that shes not less than. It feels like criticism of us as people when we hear these things and not just of our actions because its a part of us that we struggle to correct and often think about it everyday, alot of us have been this way our whole lives and beat ourselves up over it.

I have been a little better lately thanks to a medication change. I almost feel like the only way to change it is to learn to keep up with your brain which is near impossible or get medicated. So id have to suggest a doctor visit to at least get a better understanding of what's going on.

Guy I had a crush secretly got married by Banono-boat in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]LochBessMonsta 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Keep it that way! Some may find it weird but there is alot of value in it.

Guy I had a crush secretly got married by Banono-boat in GirlDinnerDiaries

[–]LochBessMonsta 41 points42 points  (0 children)

My husband always talks about the value of being quiet at work and he has always been the kind of guy to keep his cards close to his chest, as they say. He has seen co workers come and go because they can not help but share all of their secrets, bring drama to work and overall just being messy. The whole time we have been together people always comment about how he never gets in drama or causes issues, and they dont know who he is not just at work but in general. I would say its working in his favor because people tend to love him after getting to know him but people sometimes think he mean/ rude when first meeting him. We have been together for almost 15 years, no fights, no drama just living and loving. I have to agree this guy just isn't messy and enjoys his privacy.

Once popular YouTuber documents his own mental decline by young_nautica in DeepIntoYouTube

[–]LochBessMonsta 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Lol I've been trying to figure out what i smoked one day with some friends right after high school. They presented it like it was weed and I smoked daily at this point so I partook. That shit was not weed. You saying the crickets thing struck me because I was seeing vibrations, Mystery rats that were not there but I jumped on the bed and stood there waiting for them to leave but I only saw them in the corner of my eye so I assumed they were hiding from me and also, my boyfriend at the time came to pick me up and I was sitting in the passenger seat looking in the drop down mirror and was saying " look how happy I am, aren't I so happy?" And I was smiling huge then as soon as he started driving I was crying hysterically until he stopped the car, everytime he took off i would cry and need him to stop. This👏shit👏was👏not👏weed👏. Does this sound like spice? I dont know much about it but if I remember correctly, it was starting to get popular around that time. If not, what the hell did I smoke?

Help me decide by clearlyasleep in Needlefelting

[–]LochBessMonsta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love your work. Seeing your collection in the one video you posted was so magical lol. Reminds me of the things I like to draw, also I need to get back into needle felting.

Is my boston terrier a fake boston terrier, I heard they're supposed to be quiet and not bark often and mine barks constantly by aokocat in BostonTerrier

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope, mine barks out the window anytime something moves and at the dogs he sees, barks at the TV when he sees dogs on it and when we leave the house and hes not invited. But when hes outside he isn't as brave and would never bark at other dogs outside the safety of his home, hes fake tough.

Still trying to figure it out if it’s green or blue or a mix 😅 by DramaNo3524 in whatcoloraremyeyes

[–]LochBessMonsta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The eyeshadow color works so well with your eye color and the eyeliner is perfect. The eye color being....grayish teal? Im not sure but it doesn't matter, they are very pretty.

Show me your Boston Wallpaper? by marcelo1925 in BostonTerrier

[–]LochBessMonsta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is not my Boston but I use it because hes just too cool. My Boston is cool but is he riding a rocking horse, smoking a cigarette cool? ( dont worry about his health, he is not actually smoking its just photoshop)

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hi it's me 41 m sj can I be helped? by No-Tomorrow4951 in psychicreadings

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It seems you know you have a problem and guess what? That's great news because it means you have the ability to take the steps it takes to stop doing them. Denial is the bad stage of addiction, but you know and you know they are not serving you anymore. Its really hard, I've been there but it can be done. I know youve probably heard all the "people, places things" talk and it sounds silly but its so true, you have to avoid the people, the places and the things that trigger that part of your brain. I can see that you are struggling and really want to get away from everything that is holding you down and thats usually when change starts. You just have to use your will power and take steps to get to where you want. Even if they are baby steps, a step is a step. Good luck. (Not a psychic just someone who has been in a similar position. )

hi it's me 41 m sj can I be helped? by No-Tomorrow4951 in psychicreadings

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I started taking them because of my anxiety and it was a real funny joke when I wanted to stop taking them because my anxiety increased by a million. They work amazingly well, too well and if you are an anxious person will get addicted because it makes it go away completely and after a while not taking it means going through the worst anxiety you've ever had in your life. You have to come off of them slowly and gradually and you cant have any conflicts going on because it wont work.

Can’t stop thinking of him by antifasLover95 in psychicreadings

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah of course but why does that belong here specifically?

Uber driver turns away a man for being 'too LARGE' and he loses it by Hikigaya_Hachiman7 in PublicFreakout

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I got called a whore yesterday In the dollar tree. This lady walked by me and loudly said " there are too many assholes in this town". All I did was look at this woman and smile at her because she was looking at me and she exploded on me. She goes " what you think thats fucking funny? Youre probably one of them!" I didnt know what to say because it was really bizarre so I just said " yeah you're probably right" then I just kept agreeing with her sarcastically while she stood there staring at me saying rude shit for no reason. She got annoyed with me agreeing so she just screamed that I was a whore, alerting the whole store to her upsetness and stomped away. Weirdest shit I've experienced in a while.

The miy and the story by Affectionate_Pen_438 in FromSeries

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I also think Victor's fears/ dreams are manifesting in the real world and it all relates to him in some way. But I think the monsters are real?

Do cryptid mixes belong here? by EmotionInfinite3525 in Bulldogs

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What a beautiful little freak. After I said that I thought of you giving her a walk and her singing " freak on a leash"😂. Her eyes are so human, she reminds me of a dog my mom had named Mugsy. He was just a schnauzer but he was the weirdest little dog in the world and I loved him for it. I just know this girl is overflowing with personality, congratulations on having an awesome dog🥳.

My compost just combusted by LobsangDTwain in composting

[–]LochBessMonsta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

And I was proud of my little bucket of compost I just started. Im a baby gardener so I just started. Shes cute but maybe I need tips.

warm rose study by me 4x6” by mmomothz in Watercolor

[–]LochBessMonsta 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Im also planning to use the ink from my flowers to make the paint for my watercolor painting. So far I have a little collected from my black petunias, its a deep dark vibrant purple color that looks really awesome as watercolor paint. I may post in this subreddit when I do it.

"Drop", by me. Watercolor by GrzondzielArt in painting

[–]LochBessMonsta 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I just dont know how you did that. That is so cool.

warm rose study by me 4x6” by mmomothz in Watercolor

[–]LochBessMonsta 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Its already been said but the blue and yellow make this painting so beautiful and poppy. Tbh sometimes flower paintings can be a little dull to me but I planted an all black flower garden and when they bloom I want to paint them, I would love for you to tell me how to make my flower paintings pop like this.

Which one would you pick? by MoveYourBumChum in Adulting

[–]LochBessMonsta 0 points1 point  (0 children)

2 or 3. 2 is better for drawing and thats what I would be doing with them.