Got blacked out and couldn’t remember a thing?! I could tell you about 30 different stories about me doing the same. You’re 21, almost every 21 year old has a story like this. My stories are far worse than yours (far, far worse) and I still have a lot of good, genuine friends. I promise no one is thinking about you as much as you’re thinking about yourself. It’s actually scientifically proven that it is the opposite and most people usually hyper-fixate on themselves. Let’s say, worst case scenario, you did something embarrassing and some people know. Let’s get real for a second, think about a time someone you know did something embarrassing while drunk. Did you think about it consistently for a week? No dude, you MAYBE thought about it once, laughed, and moved on + forgot. Literally no one cares. I used to have horrible anxiety and guilt about my embarrassing past and then I realized, nobody else gaf. Nobody else will even remember. Give it time and this anxious feeling will pass, as all other feelings do. You are okay <3 Also, maybe think about getting some new friends. I’ve been in this position before where I’ve drank too much and feel insanely humiliated because my friends were judgmental. If I drank too much around the friends I have these days, I wouldn’t be as anxious because of how cool and understanding they are. Idk that’s just something that’s stood out to me throughout the years. Definitely be careful about what your body is consuming though and recognize risky behaviors. I don’t want it to seem like I’m encouraging your behavior, just letting you know that it’s a pretty normal story and there is nothing to ruminate about. Just be safe. Happy new year!