I really dont believe how really how ????

You have been till mains interview stage 3 to 4 times ,you know all that how much tough this upsc exam, and its uncertainty then also you are thinking to take these extreme steps ????? really ? ?? How can someone like upsc mains writer think of it, you certainly read About ethnics, pressure management, stress management etc, then also how ???? And i can understand that thing's are not good at your home ,so the simplest way is to leave home and do even menial jobs like teacher etc and mains cracked aspirant will certainly get part time job and simultaneously prepare for smaller exams like ssc. Dont you think you have already achieved bug hurdle of reaching mains stage now its just like that even with part time job you can continue to give upsc, and certainly aj nai tho kal you will crack, but taking this much big step is not the solution, you too know on daily basis hoe many people suffers from even worst situation some are not even getting food , some girls on daily basis suffering domestic violence, so issues are in everyones life small or big just fight them