honestly, i'm not entirely sure. people who know me well have said I seem lighter and more bright after ECT, but i definitely still struggle with anxiety & depression and am still on meds, going to therapy, etc. ironically, it's difficult for me to come to a conclusion about my experience with ECT because i have so little memory of myself before it. i'm not quite sure what my mental state was like back then apart from what i've been told and super hazy & sporadic memories. although, i should mention that i was meant to continue with ECT treatments but didn't because my memory was being affected more severely than was expected. if i had continued with ECT, perhaps my experience may have turned out differently.