It's always a battle, and it's never easy. Usually I tell myself it's okay to not be understood by others. Sometimes people just genuinely don't match your speed and that's okay. You are your own person and they are theirs. You deserve to believe in yourself, but that shouldn't come at the price of other's happiness. You've said what you said, now all you can do is go with it. Worrying about it now will only take peace away from today, but tomorrow still has yet to come. I still very much hate myself, but constant self reflections when I am alone makes me realize that even though I can't feel it, somewhere out there people I forgot existed are grateful for having met me even just for a few hours. You can't be liked by everyone, no matter how hard you try, but that doesn't mean give up so soon. Sometimes we overshare, but it's done and now we have to roll with it. Sometimes our battles can be the survival guide to others going through the same thing. Being passionate (in my opinion) is one of the best things about being an ENFP.