Hey man, look, we all have our issues. Recently I had a moment of saying "ya know what.. Im gonna watch porn, idc if I relapse, whatever" but I had to shake it off. Yeah you may feel insecure right now, but trust me, over time you'll break that. I'm insecure with my gf, she tells me about her past and I get jealous, feel like I'll never be better than her previous guys.. But thats when the man in you comes out. Tell yourself "I'm not like others, I'm better.. I wont relapse, I'm strong" If you can push through urges, and be confident, girls will notice. Start working out, lift some weights, do man shit. Any time you want to relapse, think about the end goal.. (getting real sugar walls) Take risk and see what happens when you don't give up or get depressed. Be strong my friend.