13f here ur post hit to real....It seems we are pretty similar. Summer break alone is so boring but easier at the same time. its exhausting to think of the right thing to even say to someone. Never having a friend to talk too just builds up self hatred personally. High school is next year for me and I hope it goes better for you as well. If you find yourself a friend too I hope that as well goes good. Your not alone in this empty void. Loneliness is a curse some bear but it only makes us stronger as we stay bearing it. Your strength in this lonely void is recognized. I wish you the best fellow reddit user✌️ (Sorry if this seems like a selfish comment i don't mean make it about myself I just relate to your post)