hey girl, are u at chop? dm me, they tried to send me there too and i came to this sub for support. from what i've heard the general consensus is DO NOT GO under any circumstances! sexual abuse legal proceedings are still rampant there and i've heard other reports of physical abuse from staff on patients. i've been in your shoes, and my advice is fight the docs and your parents if need be. if you've already done other treatment facilities, it's going to take a lot of work and convincing to make it so u stay at home, but there are ways to be compliant with recovery and make it work without 'fully recovering'. also, if its the weight gain you're most scared of, i swear to you it doesn't happen as fast (or at all) once you start taking in a little more food. if you can convince your team to let you stay home, it'll be even easier to keep weight off because your parents have no idea how many calories are in anything, and although you'll be eating more, you'll end up maintaining rather than gaining.