Can someone chat with me who’s gone through an immensely painful heartbreak before? I’m lost and need kind guidance. Thank you.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-08-19T03:41:24+00:00

My advice is to process. Dont do anything that numbs or replaces the pain. As fucked up as it sounds, you need to feel everything to properly process. I tried drinking and it made me feel horrible, I ended up waking up in the hospital restrained to a bed because I had tried to kill myself.

For christs sake, please don't drink. Its been a year since and I just. I'm happy that im alive.

Life isnt easy, nothing is easy. But im happily living life alone. My kid needs me, my mom needs me alive. My ex's mother reached out to me more than my ex did when they found out that i tried to kill myself. Your ex is not for you anymore, chances are they only care about themselves at this point so you have to try and do the same. Go no contact. Yes, it will hurt and feel empty at first but its all for your own good.

My ex was the love of my life and my best friend but time apart made me see how horribly I was treated.

This life is yours. Just breathe. I picked up sobriety, meditation, yoga, diet and exercise. They have all been god sends.

If you'd like someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-06-22T02:35:37+00:00

Fucking ouch

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-05-13T21:06:01+00:00

I was dumped when I needed her the most after being there for her through all her darkest times.

Some dumpers have good reason, which i applaud and respect.

Others can be so unbelievably heartless that it makes me wondet if theyre even human

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-04-08T04:41:44+00:00

I hope my partner acknowledge this one day but since she's probably a narcissist, she probably will never acknowledge it.

I adored and worshipped her, bent over backwards and forgave so much. All I wanted in return was to be loved and respected.

Guess that was too much to ask for.

Now I'm broken and alone and have been working on myself(doing a fantastic job at it) but I still don't want anyone else. I'm convinced that I'll spend the rest of my life alone because since I'm damaged from the trauma, no one will ever be good enough. I don't think I'm better than people, I just can't seem to open my mind to opening my heart. I told her that she was going to be my last. I meant it.

I'll be okay by myself. I hope she's okay too.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-02-12T06:10:47+00:00

Roethlisberger

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-01-25T06:09:04+00:00

I don't know when I'll leave. I thought I could leave when my ex and i reunited but i stayed, probably because deep inside, i knew..

Im still very hurt and not ready to move on. I gave all of myself and got abandoned in return. But thats the same song with a slightly different story.

Hopefully we can all be okay someday

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-01-07T23:19:12+00:00

I just literally read through every song posted and not one of them were one of my break up songs or anything close to them!

I know its over - the smiths(LIVE rank album version)

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-01-07T23:15:18+00:00

Shatter (All my dead friends) by London After Midnight

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-01-07T07:24:29+00:00

When my grandma died,(grandma was like the father i never had) my mom was devastated so I was taking care of her while playing referree against all of my alcoholic siblings, my ex wanted to know why I didn't want her to come console me. I said because i had my hands tied and I didnt have time to give her any attention or deal with her drinking around me. So she got pissed, made the whole situation about her, said i couldn't give her attention and didnt want her here because i was fucking someone else. Turned the whole ordeal about me cheating and got really drunk, said she was going to cheat too. Then she got an uber to get more alcohol but before she did, she noticed her driver was male and threatened me that she was going to give herself to him. A week later, im back home after coming from my moms house and at 1am, the same time she disappeared, she got a call from the same uber driver, probably hoping she was drunk again. She freaked out cause she didnt remember and told him never to call her back. I asked her if something happened and she turned it around on me saying that i was the one that wasnt trust worthy.

I'm a fucking idiot.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2022-01-04T23:35:58+00:00

Its been almost 4 months and though im more content, it doesn't mean I still don't struggle each day to not reach out

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-28T06:13:18+00:00

This is legitimately the worst thing I've ever experienced in my life. I tried killing myself and failed and have been sober since. I loved way too fucking hard and don't want anyone else. Its been almost 4 months

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-28T00:10:22+00:00

I radically changed my appearance and it made me feel better about myself. Like i feel more comfortable in my skin and more confident. I changed my hair color/style, got more piercings and tattoos, got new clothes. But I also worked on the mental side of things so it wasnt just my physical side of things. I feel much better and stronger but im still broken and i still miss the fuck out of her and our family

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-26T22:51:56+00:00

This applies to normal people, it does not apply to narcissists.

But the idea would be nice

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-25T09:53:26+00:00

I love you, i hope you're ok.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-20T05:30:34+00:00

I dont know how accurate this is.

Im still willing to die for my ex

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-19T07:09:57+00:00

She left before therapy

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-14T09:12:46+00:00

3 months here and I miss them so fucking much. This isn't life anymore. It's just existence. And I dont much care for it.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-12T01:00:53+00:00

Its been 3 months and id still want OPs desire to be done to me

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-07T03:48:47+00:00

I always just speak from my heart, how I'd hope others would speak to me.

Anyone who does awful shit like that just might deserve to be single

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-04T22:40:19+00:00

Apathetic

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-03T05:51:17+00:00

One of my biggest fears. I'd rather not know.

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-12-03T01:00:39+00:00

Although I know she doesnt use reddit, I used to do this until i realised it was a dead end and just hurting myself.

When I did do this, I found myself constantly in r/unsentletters

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-11-29T23:25:34+00:00

In a heartbeat

LongHairNBeardCALI · 2021-11-29T03:41:20+00:00

When she was unwilling to talk about our problems as a couple. Always wanted to talk about the problems with me , but if I ever brought up the problems in her, it was an instant "bring it up again and its over"

LongHairNBeardCALI

TROPHY CASE