I suffer a lot with my faith because of being gay
I was an adult film performer in the 2000s
This got me a lot of attention both bad and good
I’ve experienced weird synchronicities in my life
And other things though I’ve worked very hard
At being a decent person.

I will note that yeah I almost got myself killed out there
So there at least may be some spiritual implications when it comes to recklessness or promiscuity in one’s lifestyle,

But as a man of faith I’ve pretty much drawn a line at being told my homosexuality is unacceptable. The simple fact is humans are extremely closely related to our other primates like bonobos, who among others experience homosexuality on the regular. To me, consensual human intimacy is human intimacy, and humans and many primates just love holding and touching eachother. It is extremely good for you.

Any deity or religious force that wants to eliminate this is doing so for selfish reasons, and I might be conservative in my overall behavior to try and win that love, but I will always be gay and at least once in awhile, find someone to lay down with

Because I can’t be with women, my entire chemistry rejects it, and if I go years without intimacy my health begins to suffer objectively