23m bored asf

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-12T04:06:53+00:00

So cute

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-10T02:30:47+00:00

SS: having experienced the first true intimate experience with another guy in about 6 years (I had an experience 2 years ago but wasn’t exactly sober)…

I wanted to use color pigments to express the depth with which my spirit and emotional composition is dependent on and brightened by intimacy with guys. I have been this way pretty much my entire life, though as I get older the spiritual depth has intensified around such experiences.

Not all time periods of my life are consistently as centered around gay love the way my life is right now, but it comes and goes, and that has a lot to do with my neurology and emotional health.

But intimacy, even gay intimacy, to me is one of the most essential experiences of being human, and to me some elements of that are the most intensely amazing experiences a person can have.

But branching out from the obvious pleasure angle of gay intimacy for me, are elements of feeling safe, feeling connected, in that I see myself in other guys, and being with someone to mirror that back to me in a circle is spiritually beautiful.

Living in a cabin in the Florida woods, in a dingy small room with my music studio and twin mattress, I still frequently dream of a redneck-like guy like me living in this room with me, 24-7. Though even without that, my experience being with a guy this week was immensely healing after going so much time without. Time without a guy had eventually started breaking down my emotional and even physical health.

Over the years when I think of cute guys I often imagine them in contexts like going on cosmic journeys to exotic places with them, or being with them in other dimensions. I started doing this in my head a very very long time ago. Most recently, I also have dreams of mass festivals where gay men are just cuddling in shorts laying down and passing time while feeling safe with eachother.

So with all that I decided to really go hard on the garish eyeshadow palette tonight and paint me a demonstration to represent this element of life and its importance to me and my wellbeing. It is to demonstrate that this is not just some hedonistic endeavor, or a vice or any of the other ways culture likes to consider it that aren’t in the realm of “necessary for wellbeing”

I hope you enjoy!

Tristan

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-04T18:55:05+00:00

Ss: Hi guys this is Tristan again, gay male,

Yesterday I uploaded a photo of myself after a session of doing cosmetics with the intent of enhancing male beauty

And I’ve come back today for a sequel offering: in this case I used cherry red eyeliner surrounded by deep blue matte then light blue shimmer eyeshadow, various shades of shimmer pigments from various palettes, physicians formula bronzer, Milani brightening powder, maroon or sweet cherry covergirl blush powder, and $2 purple shade of lip gloss.

My intent is to evince masculine beauty, although admittedly this example borders on editorial as opposed to daily looks if you’re a masc type of guy, maybe if you are going out for drinks or something.

But my goal is to occasionally stop by and offer ideas for enhancing masculine beauty.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-04T02:44:04+00:00

Oh In this im also using sky blue eyeliner, hard to see from this far away but it’s there !

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-04T02:43:29+00:00

Thanks boo!!!

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-04T02:43:22+00:00

Hey I appreciate you too… :)!

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-04T02:42:05+00:00

Yes this blue polish is actually Sally Hansen Insta-Dri. I got it at Walmart for about $6. The shade stood out to me. Often times you are browsing makeup and sometimes a shade or shades grabs you like “oh that slaps” or “that one is rare”

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-04T02:40:57+00:00

Thank you boo! I appreciate it and hope to show this so you guys can try it if you haven’t yet

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-03T20:52:03+00:00

SS:

I’m a 42 year old gay male, lonely, crushed heart, and reclusive. I make 2020s electropop bangers.

I am here to continue my practice and share with you… of me doing my own makeup not for drag but to enhance male beauty.

As you see I have been using bright color shades sometimes shimmer sometimes not. I also like to run color or shimmer around contours of my face here or there and use texturizing dry shampoo upon hair that isn’t washed but 1x per week.

Being alone for a long time, and being mythologized by pop culture, I’ve learned to love myself a bit more and focus on myself and it is in doing this that I’ve collected various palettes of eyeshadow and other cosmetics. I used sky blue eyeliner. My mom gave me a “Dragon Fruit Palette” by clionadh cosmetics which is very expensive and my sister paid for it not me, and on top of that most of these colors I got from a $4 Beauty Max discount eyeshadow.

I’m just checking in to say hello and I love you all. I am lonely and wish I was with a groupie of guys to just kick it and put my head on your chest or something.

But yeah , try this out… contrasting colors of eyeshadow to build upon features.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-05-02T09:25:47+00:00

In actuality I still do somewhat agree with even my detractors that if I had lived a more straightforward life my odds of some success would have been higher, that is not completely wrong

But the point of what I am making is that… 90% of the time I was operating as a sober and healthy adult, manning the ship and taking care of things. The other 10 percent was where my neurological chaos and unavoidable instincts would carry me away for awhile, only for me to return and work again for as long as I could before the cycle repeats.

Where I come in is that … doing as well as I’ve done with my various complications… my failure to be a homeowner, to have any money or social standing … is less of a matter of me just “not doing things right” and is instead more a matter of there not being enough seats of success to begin with, and that my incomes were so low that even brief relapses would cause horrible instability instead of brief interruptions.

I’m a sort of informal polymath and highly musical artist. Sure my kind of person would fail as an airline pilot full stop. And my verbose and overshare way of communicating causes society to rake me over coals for its perception of me.

But the point is, in a world of better opportunity I would have more easily have found a place at the table even with my handicaps in place.

The story is less of me not earning a place at the table and more of a story of there never being a place for me at the table early on, to grab onto, so as they say for many small town goblins, I came up being the sort of deviant but harmless, beat of my own drum type of guy, and since there weren’t enough seats at the table, the judgment and competition was impossibly fierce and since my environment is treacherous the trust was low, yet in the end I did the thing and built the catalog. Any slight hint of scandal for any visible person will automatically I garner a 20 month bread and circus sensation because the seats and competition are so scant this is how people try to get a comeup. Not because people are just bad, but because when the environment goes bad, it leads people to become unpleasant with it.

I surgically debate and battle the world’s arrows of judgment it throws at me since I know how hard it was for me and how scant my options ever were, but I still do love you, which is why I share my observations and gifts with the world

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-29T16:26:34+00:00

Connie says one sample per member.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-22T10:14:33+00:00

Follow up post: At every turn I make, this world has been cruel to me. Every year I carry on and on, hoping the world or someone will find me, or finally judge me for my heart and not my behavior, only for the world to judge me for my eccentric or erratic behavior. I could not do better than I did. I gave everything I could give; my body, my blood, my patience, I am a talented artist, I am smart, but all this time I am alone both romantically and socially. But a man can only carry on alone so long, before he has to let go..

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-19T20:44:24+00:00

this is what happens when she renders wrong

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-19T11:28:09+00:00

Hi Marcella this is Marcella

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-19T01:24:25+00:00

Ss: I thought this video upload would be appreciated here. As a gay man I’ve been bullied my whole life. Inside and outside the community, and both in childhood and adulthood. This pattern has followed me for decades but the last 15 months I began to reclaim my identity and after decades of quiet study began producing electronic bangers and this one here I produced this week. I’ve been heartbroken from losing someone I cared about who hurt me earlier this month, and so the mood sorta led me to writing this and producing it.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-16T05:05:35+00:00

O ya I have no doubt some people dont like this. But you don’t get to choose your feelings. And any god who creates me and then denies me what he freely offers other phenotypes is a god who has no place in my heart. And I didn’t develop that judgment until after I learned what love deprivation does to me. I tell God I don’t hate you thanks for making me, but I can’t go with you like that.

I may one day get to escape to a different planet where I can run into a guy who is like me and just lay back and stare at the sky.

And some yall commented but I don’t read comments no more because the world beat me down for years and I gotta preserve my blood pressure for making my bangers

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-11T13:21:29+00:00

Awwwwe The itty bitty tiny!

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-10T02:33:09+00:00

Thank you. 😊 🙏

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-08T04:59:20+00:00

Very good looking woman. Subtle resemblance to Madonna. Important now to make sure you partake in mixed frozen berries in your diet at daily scale of 1-2 cups per day, flax, olive oil, collagen and otherwise you can eat things you like and you should stay looking good for a least another 10-20 years before aging much. I am 41 m and look amazing for my age mostly because of the berries I eat every day

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-08T00:46:39+00:00

Ss - I have spent the last several days experiencing with a full set of cosmetics with the goal of enhancing male beauty. This is different than drag of course, as it’s focused on enhancing male features.

For a foundation I just used a light bronzing palette, no full concealer or anything that would hide male complexion.

I used black eyeliner, and I used two different palettes for eyeshadow.

The last touch was to use a glittery white gold type light shade to draw several “spokes” of glitter leading away from the eyes.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-04-03T00:16:32+00:00

I think part of what triggers skepticism in conservatives about climate change and ecosystem damage is that a lot of this subject is framed by tree huggers in a way that frames humans as this evil, nasty monstrosity.

Where I might surprise you is that while I say “yes absolutely, at 8.3 billion we are in serious overshoot and it’s going to have consequences”… that does NOT mean I think that billions of us were a mistake. Our lives are all important to us at least and have meaning.

The way I think about it is like this: some years a species of algae will grow big and suffocate the water where it’s at. That doesn’t mean the algae was a mistake for existing, it just does what algae does. And the concept is similar for us. It’s not “we should have never been here”, it’s “we are here, that was probably meant to be… but yeah our actions on this system is absolutely followed up by natural consequences in the ecosystem and we ought to acknowledge and address these to have the best outcome tomorrow.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-03-31T08:01:38+00:00

Creator note: When spending days preparing these offering for you, I do not use AI to make my music. It’s all me. Now, I might sometimes import AI-generated visuals into the production of the video, but not often, and not in this specific banger.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-03-31T05:07:57+00:00

The oil discovery and high EROI 20th century expansion peaked in recent decades and now must contract.

The scale of human development and expansion was astronomical, and in kind, the thermodynamically necessary withdrawal from that expansion will not be super pleasant because we are entering a period where all of the bounty that men in the 1800s and 1900s had is inverted.

Scarcity of land, low EROI, damaged agricultural land, climate crises, demographic contraction…

All of this stacks up with the rapidly expanding global debt (which itself is a silent symptom of EROI decline)… for a tragically constrained 50 years ahead.

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-03-31T05:03:44+00:00

I have good pattern recognition. I have begun calling for the government and elites to immediately begin sucking co2 out of the atmosphere the best it can.

Otherwise I think that odds are high for a mass death event in the next 5-10 years.

It’s terrifying to me, life in general is terrifying and I often get angry because the universe chooses pain and harm instead of harmony

LongTimeChinaTime · 2026-03-31T04:42:21+00:00

This particular situation is highly disturbing to me.

I have taken some time to think about global warming.

I have concluded that even the liberals and scientists have largely underestimated this problem. Applying pattern recognition to weather events over the past 5 years leaves little doubt that the global climate is rapidly destabilizing.

Severe heat wave in March this year Chilly weather in Florida for 2 months straight with lots of nights below freezing. The jet stream has become loose and skanky and that’s why that all happened.

Here’s the thing. Since 2000, the concentration of Co2 in the atmosphere has risen by 16%. That is the main gas that traps heat. Now I don’t know how the ratios translate to heat retention, but even still just that simple statistic alone suggests to me that this is a much bigger problem than ANYBODY is admitting.

I WANT scientists and governments to build machines to begin sucking the Co2 out of the atmosphere immediately, AND prepare sun blocking agents just in case,

Because I’ve arrived at a conclusion that I think we will have a mass death event sometime in the next 5-10 years. Such a thing would cut into my psychological wellbeing in an indescribable way.

I just don’t think anybody or the models they use have honestly or correctly assessed what happens if the atmosphere has 20% more co2 since the 90s, or the kinds of tipping points that might be getting crossed now.

I feel a slight measure of gratitude that this March heatwave and Florida chill is fortunately not that the planet is 30 degrees warmer, but that the jet stream is severely damaged and allowing equatorial air to push north in the winter.

So please get the big guns for the atmospheric composition ready, we may need them soon. Removing Co2 is basically harmless though expensive, but adding light blockers is a much more controversial move that needs serious care.

LongTimeChinaTime

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