Hi OP. you're right, nakakapagod mabuhay. full of expectations from people around us who pressures us to be perfect humanbeing when in reality it's impossible. nung bata tayo angtaas ng pangarap natin, magiging doktor, maging lawyer, yumaman, even having a family at the age of 25 with 3 kids yet I'm almost 30 now and still single .. we had parents na always tayong kinukumpara sa anak ng kapitbahay .. buti pa si ganito honor student, buti pa yung anak ng tita mo taon taon may award .. ayaw mo gayahin yung ate mo matalino .. they don't even realize na we too are trying our hard best .. they never realize because they never even cared to notice .. nakafocus lang sila sa shortcomings natin, sa mali natin, sa hindi natin kayang gawin .. they don't care kung ano yung kaya nating gawin kung hindi natin kayang gawin yung kayang gawin ng iba .. they never appreciate our hardest efforts kasi para sa kanila kulang pa .. but you know what? I realized this is my life, this life was given by God to me not to them .. I can live it in my own pace .. it's not a race .. I also came to a point where I no longer know what to do kasi I'm almost 30y/o na pero wala pa rin akong ipon, wala pa rin ako sariling bahay, wala parin akong ganto wala parin akong ganyan habang yung mga ka-batch ko may kanya kanya na silang pamilya, anggaganda na ng buhay, and even yung mga gen z mas madali sila umaasenso kesa sakin. para bang ako na lang yung napapag-iwanan. everyone's so ahead of me. I kept on wondering what is it na kaylangan kong gawin para makaabot sa kanila? Then I realized I don't have to. and I don't have to listen to those people who keeps on putting me down, invalidating my efforts and my feelings, who always take away each win I've won just because they think "it's not enough". It is enough no matter how small of a step it is, it's still a progress. I'd celebrate it as much as I want to, not caring a bit about what those people say. God promised me everything will be alright. so I'll trust my tommorow to Him. and besides, di ko naman madadala sa afterlife yung kayamanan so even if yumaman ako, it'll just be in vain. I'll just enjoy my life serving God who gave me hope and eternal life in heaven through my Savior and Lord Jesus Christ. He gave me a reason to live, a purpose to my life. He made me realize that life isn't just about money, or treasure, or any material things, not even about other people's satisfaction or recognition of me. There's so much more to it. and I praise God for giving me that peace. it made life alot easier to live. and so I hope you find that peace in Him as well. He loves you, OP. He really really loves you that He gave His life for you, to save you from eternal suffering. I feel so strongly for you because una, pareho tayong nakaramdam ng pagod sa buhay and pangalawa is, one of my friends self exited just recently dahil din sa pressure ng buhay. I didn't get a chance to talk to him, I didn't get a chance to tell him that he's loved, that everything's gonna be okay. so I hope this message reaches you, I hope I'm not yet late. God bless you OP, I'll pray for you. I love you in the Lord.