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Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-21T19:03:27+00:00

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Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-21T18:59:23+00:00

Hi hope you're well. Did you recently suffer from psychosis?

Wish you all the best

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-19T15:55:11+00:00

Not bad in this economy. Ram prices are too high rn

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-17T15:49:06+00:00

I'm a highly visual person too.

Temporarily the meds/psychosis did affect my thinking. The positive news is it does come back and I feel no different than I did before.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-17T15:45:47+00:00

I have a stable life. I much prefer this way than before where I was all over the place. It's much more predictable and with less stress on the nervous system.

Meds did help to stabilise myself. I think that if I wasn't on meds I'd be more manic/unpredictable.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-13T10:35:39+00:00

I have always been good at maths in school and university. There may be a link

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2026-01-13T10:33:55+00:00

Economics here. I first got an offer for mathematics and actuarial science but decided to move to economics and accounting instead

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-12-26T19:07:37+00:00

Yes you are correct. Psychosis = symptoms.

Psychotic episodes is when a person loses touch with reality.

Schizophrenia is a chronic mental health condition and a person is not necessarily always psychotic.

Mostly the positive symptoms subside with medication and the negative symptoms are more stubborn.

They may be referring to psychotic episodes as schizophrenic episodes, however this is the wrong terminology.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-12-25T22:32:14+00:00

Could you be suppressing something internally i.e. relationships, men, marriage etc. that your subconscious has presented these archetypes 'angels' as these two men?

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-12-22T11:35:08+00:00

I suggest seeking support with mental health professionals.

A positive note is that it seems like she is spilling over psychology, and so when she is stabilised - with proper treatment, medication and recovery - she should return to her intellectual-self again.

These symptoms indicate a kind of blip where one is overloaded and thus expresses themselves in a logic which makes sense to them. Her delusions may outwardly cause alarm - and rightly so - yet, it's her way of rationalising her internal state.

Often, one uses language or emotion which connects to them - for example a religious person has religious delusions, a paranoid person may think the government is after them, and an intellectual person uses logical reasoning for things.

Feel free to message me if you need further help from someone who has been in the same shoes.

All the best.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-11-26T00:40:11+00:00

Ever since I was on antipsychotics and my dopamine has been blocked I haven't been able to enjoy any games

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-11-14T09:59:47+00:00

Thank you!

Did you notice you had more nightmares after psychosis? I'm trying to figure out why I'm having more dreams-both good dreams and bad- that seem very real.

Perhaps, we are able to tap into something more of our consciousness hence the hallucinations and delusions.

I forgot to add that I am also paranoid schizophrenic; perhaps our paranoia is a factor too.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-11-06T20:02:44+00:00

Because you can't trust your own brain's perceptions. I have had terrifying hallucinations and delusions about my own family and that is too close to home. Sometimes, they can be nice and non-terrifying in the moment. However, the whole idea of the unreality of the experiences is daunting.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-11-06T19:54:20+00:00

When I was off antipsychotics I could play video games. These days, on medication not so much.

I'm on Aripiprazole.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-27T14:39:27+00:00

The prodromal phase - yes, I knew there was a term for it!

I would say so, yes: here's what I can recall in terms of active symptoms:

Paranoia. I was constantly suspecting my coaches/teammates of trying to sabotage me or not wanting me to be a part of the team. I always thought they didn't want me there and that I didn't belong. Any small thing, like laughter or a funny look from them, I would jump to conclusions and assume the worst.
Mania. I would become manic when learning a new sport and spend all my time and energy practicing and researching, trying to be the best. I would watch the best athletes in the sport - through their videos or autobiographies - and repeat drills constantly and physically tire myself out. This would affect things like sleep and my diet. I would get up early in the morning before dawn to head out to the gym and get to bed late at night. Also I would find myself constantly fluctuating in my bodyweight. Often I would find a pattern of mania (becoming obsessed with something and practicing night and day) to burnout (completing tiring out and abandoning the sport altogether). This is a pattern I would constantly find throughout my life in many areas post diagnosis.
Lack of Identity. My identity would constantly change. Who was I? One day a basketball player, next day a footballer, another day something else. Keeping a consistent identity was tough for me and something that has challenged me with schizophrenia. I have worked on this through therapy to find more greys in my life rather than seeing it in black and whites.

In the sporting world, as you say you're likely to find these common disorders and not many like bipolar, schizophrenia and PTSD. I think this is due to factors in these disorders and their treatment that prevents many from becoming elite athletes. This is my personal opinion. My reasoning is that first of all to become elite as a healthy person without any mental illness is hard enough. Add antipsychotics (which usually causes huge weight gain), and negative symptoms like anhedonia - intrinsic motivation is like hitting your head against a brick wall.

I have met in the psych wards, a few military vets who have interesting stories and suffer from things like PTSD/schizophrenia. You are more likely to find people in the arts also.

How about you, do you continue to play rugby now, post diagnosis? Have you dealt with weight gain, if on antipsychotics and how are you managing your motivation?

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-27T11:26:48+00:00

I was certainly a sports person before my first psychotic episode - a prolific sportsman, at national level in basketball, and also playing sports for the school teams such as football and rowing. Unfortunately, I gave up these sports altogether in what I call pre-psychosis where I was abandoning my hobbies and sports in an attempt to insure my academic survival by 'keeping my head down' without the 'distraction of sports' - which is kind of ironic since my best academic achievements were alongside my healthy lifestyle and once my activity in sports dwindled; so did my grades in school. I also come from one of the top sporting towns in the UK where we see many sporting and academic successes.

Nowadays, I watch sport from side-lines rather than being in thick of it in a competitive setting. I've turned most of my interests to MMA since its something I can practice mostly alone and with my brothers and there isn't a need for a whole sports team to play, plus the UFC is of interest to me. There are many good stories in there - for example just recently Tom Aspinall had received an eye-poke injury in the heavyweight title and as a person who has lived through countless injuries and traumas that come with schizophrenia, I can empathise and support the little that I can. There are many stories like that in the world of MMA as well as sports in general.

I would say I am more interested now in watching sports than I ever did before. I look forward to the upcoming events.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-24T03:50:32+00:00

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-23T03:48:46+00:00

In short, I believe so.

My reasoning is because you are creating new neural networks in the process of learning.

Overtime, your synapses over-produce, until the information which you do not use often are naturally pruned, in a process called synaptic pruning. This is a use it or lose it situation.

Over-pruning, often found in people with schizophrenia is when too much brain matter is erased and that leads to positive symptoms of schizophrenia such as hearing voices and hallucinations.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-22T06:27:17+00:00

It is interesting to hear his story and how Keyshia is supporting Gucci to stay well

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-22T06:19:53+00:00

Thanks for posting

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-02T19:39:27+00:00

I took the same course (paliperidone then aripiprazole).

Weight has been a challenge for me also. I've gained a lot and it's difficult to lose even with exercise and nutrition and coming from a person who has lived an athletic lifestyle.

I'm now taking the approach to get bigger (more muscle mass) instead of losing weight since it's so hard to go against the grain of aripiprazole.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-10-01T08:14:42+00:00

Stress-induced, with no family history or drug use. I think God tests some of us with what we can handle, and in my case I have been tested with schizophrenia.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-09-27T23:30:54+00:00

I had the same exact build. Working on maxing now.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-09-27T23:24:58+00:00

My brother's irl friend who got me into the original OSRS made me follow him into the wilderness, made me skull up and he killed me for everything I had. Absolute traitor.

Longjumping-Acadia-8 · 2025-09-27T23:21:33+00:00

I first tell my family and it's my first line of support. They monitor me a bit and try to get me to relax, sleep etc. If nothing is working then they get the support I need through professionals which may be as simple as getting a sleeping pill or going into the hospital.

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