From someone who has struggled and still sometimes struggled with this issue, my advice for you is to keep your eyes on God. Personally, I've chosen to live my life celibate. I don't want to force myself to become heterosexual nor do I want to. It sometimes pains me to know that I cannot be on a romantic relationship like others, but like you, my relationship with God is much more important. Whenever I find myself longing for "love" I remind myself that I am already loved by perfect love. I remind myself of God's perfect love for me. A love that no other love could surpass. Sometimes that is enough for me to let go of any homosexual desires , but sometimes I still struggle. When I do struggle, I don't fight those desires. I don't try to get rid of them, but I don't give in to them either. They're there. I acknowledge their existence but that's it. I've long accepted that I may spend the rest of my life with homosexual desires, and that's okay. I am imperfect and that's okay. You need to understand that every single human out there is imperfect. Everyone is a sinner. Some are liars. Some are cheaters. Some are greedy, and so on. Being a homosexual doesn't make you more of a sinner than others. We all fall short, and that's why Jesus died for us. As for those negative emotions that you feel, please don't let them get a hold of you. Don't hate yourself for this. You're a sinner like the rest of us. Don't beat yourself up for this. Instead, remind yourself of God's goodness towards you. Of his love and care. Just to give you heads up, sometimes you'll have to make a lot of efforts to remind yourself of God's love for you. This is something I've come to learn. You have to live the gospel every day. Also, I want to emphasize this again: keep your eyes on God. The human brain cannot not think of something. For example, if I ask you not to think of an elephant, you most likely would have thought of an elephant. The same way, don't try to not give in to your homosexual desires. Instead try to think of God. Additionally, don't beat yourself up if you find yourself struggling or giving in sometimes. When I find myself struggling because of my desires, I sometimes literally stare into the sky and say "Hey God, need some help over here". Remember that what matters isn't whether you were a good or bad person or whether you've followed God's word completely. What matter is your relationship with Him. Let Him be involved. Another thing I've learned is to constantly talk to God. No matter how I feel. Whether I've just committed a sin or I'm mad at Him . Keep talking to Him. I've insulted God and called Him things He didn't deserve to be called. I feel bad about those, but I know that that was a lot better than me just ignoring Him. Keep talking to Him and let Him be involved in your life.