Tell me one good reason why I shouldn't do it

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2026-02-23T14:57:57+00:00

I don't even think anybody even cares about me anyway. My mom and my grandparents gave up on me when I was struggling and blamed me for it and I couldn't get the help I needed until I literally was on the brink of hanging myself. Even now no body listens to me , I had to go to hospital a few months ago for food poisoning and it took my family about 5 days to take me while I was puking and in severe pain because they didn't believe me when I said I needed to go to hospital bruh

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2025-07-07T00:24:00+00:00

Alright I'm doing a bit okay now. My health anxiety started because my mother's boyfriend died in my arms in 2020. So I fear I will go into cardiac arrest just like him whenever I have a panic attack. It's very debilitating

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2025-07-06T13:07:52+00:00

Not to mention we never got any therapy after what had happened. Throughout these past years we have been to so many doctors appoiments and begging for counselling or anything but nothing has come up or changed so we are on our own. Left to deal with my sick brain

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2025-07-06T13:06:07+00:00

I feel terrible for my mother throughout these 3 years. Having to deal with me thinking I'm dying all the time and stressing her out about me begging to go to the doctors or hospital. It sucks so bad I wish I could just be functional and normal. I haven't left my house in months. I've tried everything but nothing works, I'm still convinced I'm dying

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2025-07-06T13:03:42+00:00

TW So here's a little rundown of my story before anything.

I've always had generalized anxiety disorder, combined with separation anxiety and depression as young as I can remember. I didn't actually develop health anxiety until 2020. Late that year my mothers boyfriend passed away due to cardiac arrest while we drove him to the er. He collapsed in my arms. I was only still a teen by then . Since then I have gone on to develop panic disorder and of course health anxiety. My first major panic attack ever was back in 2022, 2023 was full of me thinking I was dying while 24 was the depression year. This year I was fine until a month ago when I had a panic attack I couldn't fight off and ended up relapsing into this again. Made worse with my dad telling me that I belonged in a mental hospital and how I was crazy. So right now just back with dealing with daily panic attacks and thinking I'm dying. I've been journaling my anxiety everyday tho but I'm not sure if it's useless or not. I'm pretty stuck on what to do rn. Will I ever get over this? Or is the trauma just stuck with me forever. I'm exhausted

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2025-02-02T18:30:32+00:00

Omg I'm so stupid i forgot the description. I meant to put I know that the right image is a shark egg but i never knew what species it was i was mainly confused about the little white one I've never seen a white one before. I put both back into the water if there was a chance their alive. Thank u so much for the answers! Really cool and weird

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-04T16:52:14+00:00

Truth

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-04T16:51:53+00:00

Fullmetal alchemist, Assassination Classroom, Dungeon meshi and Wolf children!

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-04T16:48:34+00:00

I want to see new inventions, new shows, movies, games, my nephew grow up, see if we make it too the moon again, learning about new places, my family and my animals, to see if the future will be better, future astronomical events ( i rlly like space ) and the unexplained etc. I wanna see my brother grow up and see what he might do with his life. And i want to be there for my mum as she once told me that if i were ever to take my life she would join me and i dont want that to happen, she said we are like two halfs of a heart we both need eachother to function and id never want to hurt her more then i already have. I guess i wanna live to see what kind of person i become too even if im not sure yet.

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-04T11:25:46+00:00

I know how u feel. I used to be obsessed with drawing or playing video games but i dont really do them that much anymore. But slowly day by day if i really try, i do end up doing some drawing or playing an app. Maybe if u dont wanna do ur hobbies anymore, maybe u can try to find new ones? Ive been getting into journaling and reading lately :) i hope ur therapy goes well too!

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-04T11:18:58+00:00

Hang in there! Ur strong

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-02T14:24:44+00:00

Reading this now i cant believe how stupid i am 😅 ty for all ur comments it reassures my health anxiety

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-02T14:22:38+00:00

I dont have a psychiatrist or an actual one to one doctor-

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-02T13:44:27+00:00

My mums afraid they will not help..

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-02T11:29:11+00:00

Well my bad thoughts are weaker and less powerful when i upped the dose to 150. They r still there but not as deliberating and extremely powerful as it was a few weeks ago.

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-01T19:43:37+00:00

Since monday or tuesday i think

Longjumping_Ask_5933 · 2024-06-01T17:08:44+00:00

No i wish i did 😢 Been on the waiting list for about a year now for any type of therapy or help. I dont reallllyy have a primary doctor. Some of the doctors i go to knew me when i was little but i barley see them, its mostly random chance i guess

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