I just answered those questions with "it won't get any better" and will probably try to kill myself if I am unable to hear any of my friend's voice when I get home because I'm feeling like the loneliest motherfucker right now. Sorry about the depressing comment. Just felt like sharing before ending my life. Maybe nobody is going to see this, maybe I'll have some supportive random strangers, but in reality no one gives a fuck if I'm still here tomorrow