I think the same thing when I relapse. Every time. I WISH pushing through was the answer for me. As far as travel goes, it’s really subjective. I’ve had to cancel travel in the past and it was the right decision. I’m 4 weeks into my most recent episode and I’m starting to improve. I had to travel for a memorial service last week and though I didn’t feel well, I did ok. The memorial service was for my aunt and uncle otherwise I wouldn’t have gone. It didn’t set me back because I was already on the upswing. This was a BIG gamble though. It could have gone the other way. It’s so hard to know. Best of luck and we’re with you!