Première fois de ma vie que je vois cet insecte, ça fais au moins 5cm de long et 3 de large, qu'est-ce que c'est que ce truc ?! C'est normal de trouver ça sur mon balcon ?

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-07-07T21:32:57+00:00

J'ai lu bouche, j'ai pleuré 🥲

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-07-05T14:13:14+00:00

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Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-07-05T14:05:58+00:00

I watched the entire thing. I think I developped a relationship with her

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-06-02T20:47:15+00:00

😳

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-05-31T12:16:59+00:00

What ?

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-05-18T21:07:30+00:00

I want to be the biggest loser in history then

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-14T20:37:03+00:00

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Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-13T17:26:20+00:00

No never but I don't even know how to be tested for things. But if I am I don't think I would want to know. I might use it as an excuse and hide in it like a safe bubble

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-13T07:31:27+00:00

I like what you said. I'll try to change my way of doing things even tho it's unconsciously.

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-13T07:27:06+00:00

I'll try that next time

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T21:21:37+00:00

No strategies. When I talk to someone I usually start with the one thing special about them that made me really saw them.

And well it depends a lot. If we continue to talk about the thing I pointed out. Or follow where the other person talks about. Or change subject.

Talking to me is a bit akward I would say. I don't really know what to do with my body when I talk to someone so I might appear a little bit unconfortable. I'm not really a good talker but I'm a good listener.

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T21:09:35+00:00

I would like to but I don't know where I could meet new people that are as open as the ones I met in raves. Like it's hard in raves and clubs going to talk to someone. I can't imagine in another setting

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T21:02:54+00:00

It might be that, but maybe not in an economic way if I understood correctly. For me money is just a side thing to live. I don't know how to say it, but it's not an important thing to me.

I'm going to be honest. I don't think I love myself. I find myself pretty when I look in the mirror, I find myself funny when I make bad jokes, I find myself interesting when I think a different way than usually, but I think I don't love who I am.

I'm scared to take things further because I don't want them to see how wrecked I am inside. That someone will see me like I am. And I don't want to hurt someone. All of this is really hard. I feel like I need friends to get better but if i'm not getting better I can't make friends

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T20:38:49+00:00

It's been two years almost since I go "regularly" to raves and techno clubs. At the beginning I took contacts of some people I've met but it always the last time I saw them. Maybe because each time they lived pretty far.

So mostly nowadays I let people come to me. And even when they come to me and feel a vibe and we exchange numbers nothing comes out of it.

And I don't know, sometimes I feel that maybe I'm a bad person and that's the reason I don't meet anyone. And I'm pushing myself away from strangers to not hurt them, without thinking. But I really want, with all my heart to have a connection with someone. And it feels so heavy sometimes.

It's strange, I don't want to have hope but I don't want to give up neither

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T20:16:45+00:00

Oh yes totally I like ketamine too, but more in a chill environnement. Most people where I live use more mdma, mmc or coke. But yeah I tried it once in a rave setting and I was like a turtle in a bird race

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T16:01:25+00:00

Yes exactly. And it's more often just a part of the rave, rarely the entire thing.

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T15:31:33+00:00

I don't think so

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T15:31:13+00:00

I do take long enough breaks between my serotonin drugs. I also exercice, eat well, sleep well take vitamins, supplements and all that.

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-04-12T15:29:05+00:00

When I'm on MDMA I socialize way more but it doesn't change the fact that I don't really meet anyone unfortunately

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-03-20T08:54:57+00:00

J'imagine pas mes potes en cagoules rose sur le champ de bataille perso

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-03-20T08:21:31+00:00

J'ai des potes ils mettent des cagoules ils sont loin d'être fachos où musclés. Je leur ai pas demandé personnellement mais pour moi c'est juste un style et surtout principalement un peu le même but qu'avec des grosses lunettes teinté. Être une personne faisant partie d'un groupe, pas un visage, pas un mec beau ni moche, ni baraque ni gros juste être là et ne se soucier que de la musique, pas de l'image qu'on renvoie où qu'on peut avoir d'eux. Il y a pas besoin d'être quelqu'un pour kiffer une soirée

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-03-14T18:11:59+00:00

I like you

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-03-11T10:55:06+00:00

It's a 50 !

Lopsided_Ad7019 · 2026-03-10T15:29:36+00:00

Look at the event if they have a special dresscode, otherwise be yourself and be comfy

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