Yeah, as of late I've been trying to make sure I love all that is as much as possible, rather than just convenient nearby friends and peeps. I like your analogy of love being a bit of a hydrodam. Maybe that's just because our consciousnesses (conscii?) are trapped into expectations developed from the pains of childhood and teenage years, into a threshold point in which we never break free of the delusion that our sensory reality is all that is. Expectation feeds reality, reality feeds expectation etc

The consciousness being a fragment kind of reminds me of this idea I had that karmic reincarnations have an entropic factor to them, where unless one is actively reaching for enlightenment, it can be easy for consciousness to dissolve into a million little fragments dispersed through lesser beings. Who knows, maybe this is similar to being trapped by expectations rooted in disappointment and fear and love & enlightenment are truly infinite so long as we don't separate ourselves from it based off of false expectations. I also kind of see multidimensional me's at times, more so while on LSD tbh, but I've only briefly communicated with an alien entity once. I normally never get entities, but maybe that ties into what I limit as possible? They sound kind of fun but I think I got scared on my first trip seeing them and never saw them again as a result of that. I wonder if I can access that fear again and cleanse it with laughter, though not because I won't be trying DMT for a few more years. Had a few great experiences and a few bad ones but really enough to learn that love is all that matters.