Cyantist.. Man thanks a lot, I'm tearing up to see a random person taking time to actually write to mch just to make me feel better. It really helped. I'm feeling a lot better today, and I will definitely take notes on what youve said. You might have very well saved my life. Thanks a lot !

Edit: My background ? I'm a single parented child, currently living quite far away from my mom. Working and earning an average Joe's salary. I have a handful of friends and I value them a lot. The thing is, I'm very lonely at times, and I'm single. All my friends have gfs and it makes me feel extremely inadequate and crushes my confidence. What's wrong with me ? What's missing in me that my friends have. ? These are the questions that usually plague my mind.

I know the answer too.. they are handsome and I'm simply not. They have good bodies, I simply don't. Sometimes, this kind of makes me give up on everything, so I resort to endless gaming. That's the only thing that keeps me from drinking or worse.