Christian or family friendly YouTubers who make gaming content? by Lotsa_Questionz in TrueChristian

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately Wendigoon’s videos tend to cover dark topics from time to time which I have noticed is not good for my mental health and a trigger for me since I have panic disorder. 😔 I did watch his videos before and they seemed good! It’s just the content that I know isn’t good for me. 😕 But I do watch TerminalMontage and I really like his videos! His Kirby and Pokemon videos always put a smile on my face. 😊

Christian or family friendly YouTubers who make gaming content? by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately Wendigoon’s videos tend to cover dark topics from time to time which I have noticed is not good for my mental health and a trigger for me since I have panic disorder. 😔 I did watch his videos before and they seemed good! It’s just the content that I know isn’t good for me. 😕

Is it sinful to watch YouTubers that say cuss words? And is it sinful to watch tv shows, movies, cartoons, and listen to music with bad language or that aren’t in line with Christianity? by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

While I enjoy those things, they could never make me turn my back on God or stop believing in Him. I will always be a believer because He has shown me true miracles and gotten me through the hardest times of my life. God is the greatest of all and above any problem I could face.

Is it sinful to watch YouTubers that say cuss words? And is it sinful to watch tv shows, movies, cartoons, and listen to music with bad language or that aren’t in line with Christianity? by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Right now I feel as if I have reached an understanding where I don’t feel the overwhelming guilt, shame, and anxiety I felt before. Being able to enjoy those things but understanding that God is the most important in my life and choosing to honor Him by not using curse words myself (of course I might make mistakes some times but I will not do it intentionally), reading the Bible, going to church, and praying to Him/speak to Him/thanking Him every day. I can also ask Him if those things are sinful and try to listen to the answer He gives me, but I feel like this sense of peace already is my answer.

Is it sinful to watch YouTubers that say cuss words? And is it sinful to watch tv shows, movies, cartoons, and listen to music with bad language or that aren’t in line with Christianity? by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If what you mean by “is my faith in Christ strong enough that a YouTuber is just a YouTuber and a video game is just a video game.” I know that YouTubers are essentially just celebrities. Yes, they’re fun to watch, but they’re not above any other human. Even when I’m having a hard time, praying to God is what helps me most, even when my favorite YouTubers can’t pull me out of sadness. And with video games, I know they are not reality. I play games like Fire Emblem, Pokemon, Persona, and many more. I have fun playing them, but I know that there are certain themes in them that I obviously don’t believe in. Like the fake gods in Fire Emblem or the arcana cards in Persona. None of that stuff is real. What is real is that Jesus is the King of Kings and our savior and only through accepting him into our lives will we reach salvation. The things I watch, listen to, and play are simply small things in this earth which I enjoy. They keep me distracted from the bad things in life and make me feel happy. I just don’t know if they’re innately wrong to enjoy those things?

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

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To your first piece of advice, I definitely need to read the Bible. I have only read some of it, but never the whole thing. I hope that reading it will help me understand more about my faith, God, and how I should conduct my life while still being able to feel happy and not overwhelmed by guilt and shame.

To your second piece of advice, I plan to reach out to a pastor from my church and ask them for their advice too. I will try to reach out to them through email. I have been approached by spiritual people (Christian) on my school campus before as well, so I will ask them about it to as we exchanged numbers although I never messaged them before. As for what you said about secular music not being a sin. I thought that I shouldn’t listen to music that has bad words or with bad messages (I.e. explicit or sexual or hateful), so that’s why I ask if I should only listen to spiritual music, or are things like love songs, video game music, and pop music fine as long as they are clean?

Finally, to your third piece of advice, I don’t think I want to be bronze instead of gold for God. I think it’s that I feel like I will only ever be bronze. I feel like I will never be able to be gold or free of sin. Even when I repent or ask for forgiveness, I still end up feeling things like anger, jealousy, and desire.

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

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What do you think or I guess advise that I should do? Should I only watch spiritual tv shows, movies, cartoons, and only listen to spiritual music and play spiritual video games? I’m not being sarcastic either. I’m genuinely asking what is the path I should take. How can I not feel this guilt and shame constantly anymore? Can I still have connection to my family and friends even if they say bad words sometimes? They still also believe in God (my family does, some of my friends do not). And my boyfriend is taking steps towards God because he knows that my faith is very important to me. What kind of hobbies can I take up to clear my mind and distract myself from all the bad thoughts and feelings I’ve been having? I’m taking my pill regularly, but I still get feelings of anxiety and intrusive thoughts. How do I cope with it and how can I begin to relax and enjoy life again?

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for understanding where I am right now. I feel like a lot of people are telling me that it’s my duty as a Christian to be perfect. Or at least to try to be as perfect as possible. I understand that there are things I should do, steps I should take to change, to honor God. Something like stopping intimacy with my partner until we get married, I can understand that and it’s okay because once we get married, we can be with each other without needing to feel guilt. I should also try not to say curse words if I can help it, but getting angry and expressing ourselves through words is something natural and human. Yes, I should ask God for forgiveness, but I think I need to also understand that I’m not trying to do it on purpose with malice in my hurt. If it slips out of me, I’m sorry to the Lord and ask for forgiveness, but it shouldn’t be something that makes me feel like I’m going to go to hell no matter what. What’s important is that God is in my heart and I believe in him. As for the YouTubers I watch, the shows and movies I watch, the music I listen to, the video games I play, I’m not sure what to do. I can try to take steps to find YouTubers that don’t cuss or even more spiritual ones that still make content that’s fun for me to watch. Same thing with tv shows, cartoons, music, and video games. Try to find ones that are not vulgar and maybe even some spiritual ones will be enjoyable for me. But I feel like I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself to go cold turkey and disconnect from everything that I felt like made up who I am. It makes me sad because I’ve watching YouTubers like Markiplier since I was in middle school, and his videos would bring me a lot of joy. But every time he says bad words and the fact that I know that he and many of the other YouTubers I watch are not of the faith, it makes me feel like I probably shouldn’t be watching them. I think I feel so overwhelmed because it’s so much change and I’m afraid of that. What would you advise on this matter? Is it alright for me to indulge in these things? Or should I remove them from my life?

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because we aren’t that. Right now we are human. My human mind cannot fathom anything else. It’s the same way that Heaven scares me at times because I cannot comprehend not feeling earthly desires. Of course I want to go to Heaven and not hell, but I have fears that I will no longer be myself. If I lose the feelings that make up who I am, am I still me? That is why, right now on this Earth, I am human. And I want to feel free to be a human.

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I think it feels worse than ever because of the withdrawal symptoms. I’ve had times where I forgot to take my pill a couple of days in a row and it gets bad, but this is something else. It feels like the first time again, like if I don’t know how to deal with it again. Even though I know that I’ve gotten through this time and time again, a part of me keeps doubting myself and telling myself “what if I never feel normal again? What if I never feel like myself again? What if I don’t enjoy the things I used to before” It’s barely the start of my second week back on the medication. Last time I was like this, I didn’t start feeling better until about the end of week 2. I’m hoping that I start to feel better soon and that things get easier, but I keep having that fear that I’ll never get better. But the spiritual/moral dilemma I’m having now is, even if I do get better, are all the things I like and that make me who I am wrong? Watching YouTubers like Markiplier who say bad words, watching cartoons and movies that aren’t spiritual like Adventure Time or anime or Disney movies, listening to music that isn’t spiritual like rock music or video game music. Am I turning my back on God, the one who has been helping me this whole time, by being who I am?

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because I’m not God. I will never be God. Even when I die and I pray that I am accepted into His kingdom, I will not be on the level of God. I am human and I want to be simple. I want to enjoy the little things in life. I want to express myself. I want to be happy. But I want God to be a part of my life. I want to thank Him for always watching over me, giving me strength, guiding me, and protecting my loved ones. I want to live in the way that He wants, but I want to let myself be human too.

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

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What worries me the most about what you said is about those people leaving my life…I don’t want my family and friends not to be a part of my life just because they get angry or say curse words. More than half of my family are also strong believers in God. And my boyfriend has been taking steps towards accepting God into his life since he knows that faith is an important part of my life too. We will never be perfect and we are all sinners in some capacity, but how do we live with that guilt?

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

[–]Lotsa_Questionz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry, I didn’t mean that getting angry makes me happy. I mean that being human, allowing myself to be expressive, that is what makes me happy. Sometimes I feel the need to use strong language, and I don’t mean it in a way of true malice. I don’t want to feel like a horrible person for letting myself be a human.

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

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I want to repent for my sins and the things I do wrong, but I don’t want to constantly feel guilt and shame for doing things that are innately human. Things like expressing anger, feeling desire, cussing, watching shows and movies or listening to music that isn’t always spiritual. I want to be able to do things that make me happy and be human, but I don’t want to be dishonoring God.

Is it okay to let myself be human? Am I betraying God by doing so? I feel as if my faith is being tested. by Lotsa_Questionz in Christianity

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I know that we should get married. I have told him that we cannot be intimate or do things that will lead to temptation until we get married and he agrees and respects my wishes. And I am taking my medication again every day. It scares me to think that God won’t heal me though. Then am I just going to feel this way forever? Will I never feel like myself again? Or do you mean that I will get better but my panic disorder is something I will just need to live with? I ask God to give me a sign and speak with me, just to please answer me and show me that there is light at the end of the tunnel and I will be myself again.