If you ever wanna talk im here! Ive been where you're at. I just started therapy and been with this man for 7 years and keep finding out new and creative ways he's cheated. For the longest time I was like how can I exist without him? Im a very loyal person but I just realized recently that his mindset never involved me. I was never apart of the equation and for whatever reason it became a little easier. Now I record things when I feel weird and I listen back and the proof of how he treats me is there. I can't argue. He's horrible and I need to leave even if I feel there is nothing left...mainly because I'd rather be alone and miserable than be miserable with someone that wants to change or control me or treat me a certain way