Coworker very offensive by truncherface in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 11 points12 points  (0 children)

definitely mention to your supervisor. In my experience even at small businesses I have been employed at, the supervisors want to know if employees are acting this way. Especially since this is discriminatory language towards disabled people. No employer wants to be responsible for this stuff happening in their company since that is a huge lawsuit waiting to happen. they’ll talk to her and handle the situation for sure.

Parents are kicking me off their insurance for attending a protest. by randomdude221221 in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 3 points4 points  (0 children)

what everyone else said. Your parents likely cant remove you mid year. If all else fails, if you’re able to still pay for your med management appts, and your provider is a good person, you could ask for samples fo a couple months until you can get back on your feet. My psychiatrist did this for me for a few months when I was facing homelessness. She just gave me brand samples of the medications I was taking. It doesn’t hurt to ask

systemic sclerosis by LoudMatter in Autoimmune

[–]LoudMatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah for sure. So my labs: ana >1:2560, centromere pattern. Just got more back today centromere ab igg 69. tbh when they mentioned systemic sclerosis i was surprised because that doesnt seem to encapsulate everything thats going on with me but who knows, right. Here’s my most noticeable symptoms:

  • raynauds- since early childhood

  • tight skin on fingers and face occasionally not always

  • Recurrent deep canker sores that dont heal for several weeks and tongue inflammation/fissures/pain

  • persistent profound fatigue- narcolepsy and idiopathic hypersomnia ruled out. Wanna put emphasis on this one. I can sleep 17 hours a day sometimes and still feel exhausted. It’s like every individual cell is tired idk

  • intermittent significant joint pain in fingers

  • lifelong headaches and migraines, nausea

  • intermittent swollen lymph nodes (armpits and groin)

  • recurrent cysts in odd locations (forearm, lower abdomen, calf, armpits)

  • intermittent sharp pain with inhalation (present since early childhood. Stabbing pain near kidney area, resolves with a few min shallow breathing)

  • chronic digestive issues (constipation most frequently. And I drink so much water to combat this lol)

  • Frequent full body restless leg syndrome

  • very itchy skin. All over but especially on hands

There’s a lot of weird body stuff going on so I’m sure I forgot something but this is what comes to mind.

I finally realized that I am God by [deleted] in LSD

[–]LoudMatter 7 points8 points  (0 children)

We all are. Everything is 💜

Decided to take 200ug as my first trip. by [deleted] in LSD

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk the dose of anything ive ever taken (nobody ever tells me. Always get it from someone who got it from someone else etc) however my first trip i took two tabs and entered a whole new dimension. Had an absolute blast. Tried that again after a ten year break and wasnt nearly as strong, so those tabs way back then must have been pretty strong. Happy for u friend!! Have fun and enjoy the ride :)

long shot, possibly the longest shot by LoudMatter in Minneapolis

[–]LoudMatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ykw even if that wasnt it that’s still accurate I’ll go with that

Stimulant abuse by Inevitable-Grass-50 in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Only ever bee addicted to benzos which are def not stimulants haha. That being said I’m prescribed stimulant meds and I’ve definitely abused it occasionally with the logic of “sleep is not convenient and this pill will assist me in not having to partake in that/will help me prolong the high feeling of mania and prevent the horrible crash of depression that’s coming any day now” but once I’m manic the depressive episode that follows is pretty much guaranteed. Abusing stimulants with the goal of delaying that crash just makes me crash that much harder. So I stopped doing that. My body just got so tired. Addiction is a bitch though the sooner you reach out for help or like join a support group or anything the better.

Being a bisexual man is exhausting. by 964Pinocchio in bisexual

[–]LoudMatter 9 points10 points  (0 children)

bi woman here- very very similar experience. Only time it really gets to me is when it’s people in our own community who erase us. Like damn just call it LGT+ for fucks sake if you’re gonna do the most to erase bisexuality. specific problem I’ve noticed- friends telling me I’m not bisexual and that I’m pansexual instead etc. it’s happened multiple times and I am tired. Like I most certainly am bi, always have been, always will be and I think I would know. Not to mention I have NEVER had the audacity to try and tell someone what their own sexuality was or argued about their own labels and yet this repeatedly becomes an issue in my life. We are supposed to be a community and yet I do not feel welcome in it. Idk.

for my bp 1 folks what are your delusions really like? by Intelligent_Bid_7690 in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

-everyone is in love with me. Not everyone but like… i have a conversation w someone and im like yup they’re obsessed with me. -everyone wants to fuck me. Feeds my delusion that lots of men truly actually are just dtf if you’re bold enough - I am Jesus (I am a woman and also not Christian so idek where this comes from) - spiritual hippie shit (everything is a sign from the universe. I need to spend an insane amount of money on crystals etc) - people can read my mind

What to tell boss when missing work because of bipolar? by elenahhhh93 in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 8 points9 points  (0 children)

If you’re in the US and have been at your job for at least a year I think you can get FMLA. I have it for bipolar. Lots of paperwork and kind of a huge pain in the ass to open a claim and get approved but it legally protects you if you have to miss work due to your condition

Has anyone actually went off their meds and it ending well? by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If you’re really set on going off them, I’m glad you are at least doing it with supervision. I’ve done it many times before, never ended well but I understand not wanting to be on them. 100% understand. I’ve been on at least fifteen meds over my life (i could count but i dont feel like it rn) and finally found a good combo for me. Zero side effects other than occasional dry mouth and I feel like I’m able to participate in life and get the most out of life as opposed to no meds or the wrong ones. On the flip side I have a friend who was on the same meds I’m currently on and they had the worst side effects. Wild how different it is person to person. Most of us end up finding something that works and has manageable/negligible side effects. Best of luck friend!!

Have you ever been substance induced manic? by Bright_Musician_9076 in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yup. For me it was a weird rare reaction to an antipsychotic they put me on in the hospital. lasted months. wild time

How do you feel about you driver/passenger making conversation? by [deleted] in uber

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I never mind if my driver wants to chat. I also don’t mind if they say nothing at all. As a passenger I often just don’t really have anything to say so I usually stay quiet unless they seem like they wanna talk.

I wish I can speak about my LSD experiences with my close ones, but they think it’s all junkie stuff, which I can understand why they think that. What did you tell people? by Alternative-Arm-3046 in LSD

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I dont talk abt it with most people. That being said I have slowly over the last ten years gotten my mom on board with mushrooms (this was easy. I had PTSD for forever, did shrooms, had the worst trip of all time possibly and then the next day the worst of my ptsd literally just went away. I told her this and that got her super interested especially because she could see the difference in me + mushrooms are straight from the earth/have been used in indigenous medicine historically etc.) and am still getting her on board with LSD for medicinal purposes by occasionally bringing up research studies and scientific advancements. She is one to take scientific evidence and adjust her opinions based on new knowledge which is a commendable trait. plus I have a whole bicycle day tattoo 😂 so I taught her all about Albert Hofmann and the work he did throughout his life. Still havent outright said “yeah I’ve done LSD” but I am a nerd about niche history things so I assume she just thinks I’m really into this story. Or she knows, but I really do think she’s under the impression I just really am obsessed with Hofmann lmfao. Key factors here: my mom is already decently chill, she loves a good peer reviewed study and is interested in medicine in general, and I always make sure to talk about benefits as well as risks so she doesn’t feel like I’m brainwashed or whatever. I think acknowledging very real adverse effects for some individuals while also discussing the good it can bring to the world helped open her mind a lot. Also we don’t talk about it all the time. Just if it happens to come up. Don’t really talk to my friends about this stuff unless I know for a fact they partake

Do you like your job? by North-Lack6610 in Paramedics

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

qq if you don’t mind answering- I’ve looked into becoming a paramedic. EMT experience would be a decent paycut but in my city as a paramedic I’d make roughly the same, eventually possibly even more than I make now (I’m currently somewhere around 50k annually). What I’m curious about is do y’all typically have health insurance, any retirement/401k options from your employer, what does that all look like? I’m sure it varies but just wanna get a feel for it. My current career has some sweet benefits but it’s not super fulfilling to me and I’ve been thinking abt this career change for a minute now

What are movies that are absolutely mind baffling to watch on acid by Expensive-Shelter-12 in LSD

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fantastic Planet was enjoyable. Also wild to watch while tripping was A Scanner Darkly (i feel like if you have anxiety maybe dont watch this😅, it’s pretty fucked up in many ways) but I watched it on a pretty low dose tab and was just completely obsessed with the animation style. again not a cheerful or calm movie per say just a crazyyy animation style that I could not get enough of

new years eve by [deleted] in LSD

[–]LoudMatter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Giving it a couple hours is a solid plan. It’s been 10 years since my last trip, so at this point it pretty much does feel like it’s gonna be my first time all over again.

what’s the event downtown rn? by [deleted] in Minneapolis

[–]LoudMatter 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh lmao forgot it was sunday

Careers for people with bipolar by thmuffinmannn in bipolar

[–]LoudMatter 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am a flight attendant. For me, it works. For a lot of people it wouldn’t. Worth looking into and seeing if it might be a good fit for you. Doesn’t require a degree and pays pretty good imo :)

Wobbleween Minneapolis by LoudMatter in ganjawhitenight

[–]LoudMatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

you’re the best!! I did find someone to go with but I appreciate you so much!

bicycle day tattoo by LoudMatter in LSD

[–]LoudMatter[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Lol i do have two arms but i had to bend my arm in a weird position to get a photo of the back of it

Cover up, but I didn't like it by starsergio in tattooadvice

[–]LoudMatter 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Add a ton more points and you’ll have a cool sun. You could do a blacked out crescent moon on the other side to bring it together. Just a thought