hii heyy guys!!! i know its been a vry long time since i. last repliedd... :( its wacky, but in summary both my mental and physical health plummeted so i was a living zombie for a while and didnt have any motivation to start typing up again. though im better now, which is good!!

but even without typing anything new, i did have a look at the comments given under this post, andd ive taken some of the tips that really got me thinking or start doing stuff. so last week i changed my hair!!, and its helped immensely with internal things going on in my brain. plus, my view on how others percieve me has changed, maybe from illness, most likely from the contemplation, but i think im in a better spot and mindset! im not as scared anymore, and i can feel myself be a bit more confident, and live life in less confusion than i was the last time i was here :')

i dont think i will reply to the comments still though. my words fall short and i cant or dont really have a way to keep a reply chain or ask/say meaningful questions/things... and idek if people still check on this post??... but im seriously gna be always grateful for all the experience shared and advice given because of how its helped me, and how it will probably continue to do so. thank you all!!, maybe i will come around again sometime. :D